Ipod + family <3!

Spent the whole afternoon sorting through my ipod.
Now, my eyes feel like this: o.0
HAHAHA

But, it was all worth it!!!
Now, every single song have album art and some of my favourites have lyrics!!!
I LOVE doing the cover flow!
It's so so sooooo colourful!
LOLOLOLOL!

My home is sooooo quiet now.
Mummy, Daddy and Bro flew this afternoon to Bali.
Normally, i would have love this peace and quiet.
Not saying i'm totally not, but somehow, i miss my family.
T.T

Though my bro and i often quarrel,
and he kept insisting that he hates me. =.=
Somehow, deep down, i can no longer imagine a life without him.
No matter the good or bad.
Sounds so mushy, but true.

Some time ago, i forgot when, Hilda asked me is family more impt to me or friends?
If you asked the old me then, i would say friends.
Terrible but true. =x
But at that moment, i said family without much hesitation.
Friends are still impt to me too, but i've realised that there's only so much friends can do.
Unlike family, who will be there with you always.

What's real pathetic, is that people now do not really cherish their family much.
And the reason is simple, they take their family too much for granted.
It's easy to take family for granted, me too.
Or else, i won't request and expect so much from my parents and yet, does nth much in return.

But, i really love my family alot.
And i'm glad i've realised how impt they are to me so early in my life.
Esp my dad, who is always there for me and who've sacrificed much for me.

When i was in sec.2, my dad was offered a GREAT job opportunity.
But, it was an overseas job and both my mum and bro had no probs immigrating with him.
The only problem was me due to my studies.
I told my dad i can go to stay in a hostel or something coz it was too good an opportunity to miss.
However, he still decided to reject it and stay behind.
T.T i was very very touched.

HAHAHA
So, i've decided to study hard and reciprocate his care by taking care of him and mum in the future.
Speaking of which, i really need to stop procrastinating on my hol. hw.
As much as i dun want to do.
:(

Life doesn't always deal you the best cards.

Places i want to visit.

Places i want to visit ( Before i die >.<)

First of all.... SouthEast Asia!!

1) Hanoi, Vietnam.






Isn't it beautiful??!! Ho chi Minh Mausoleum and so many other places.
I'm getting all excited for my OEP!!
:)

2) Seoul, South Korea





Jajangmyeon!!!! Everybody who knows me knew i had a period where i was CRAZY over jajangmyeon. HAHAHA
Can't believe i'm going S.korea in about 12 days time.
Countdown, Countdown!!
I can't wait!!!!

3) Tokyo, Japan

Beautiful Sakura!!
Now, here's a story:
Originally, our OEP trip was planning for Japan.
But due to SOMEONE, *ahem ahem*, the location was changed to S.korea.
Not complaining, of course.
but, i would LOVE to go to Japan.
Someday, someday.
LOL!!

Disneyland!!!!! ;)
I've never been to disneyland before.
And i MUST go once at least!!!!

Next, I want to go on a whirlwind EUROPE tour!!!

1) Berlin, Germany.

Germany, the country where i've heard soooo many times before during hist. lectures.
The country that i use soooo many times in my hist. essays.
The country that is RICH in history!!!!
I want to visit Berlin!!!
See the Brandenburg gate, what's left of the Berlin wall etc.

2) Prague, Czechoslovakia


Well, there's pretty much no reason for it.
Just because i find the architectures so Beautiful!!!
:)

3) Paris, France


Well, well. How can anyone resist the romantic temptation of Paris??
Museums, Effiel tower.

The notre- dame cathedral.
Such a stunning city!!!
I dream, of sitting at a roadside cafe opposite the effiel tower one early morning.
Just sipping tea and watching life pass me by.
:)


4) London


London bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down...
Speaking of which, the art people are going both London and Paris.
They are flying on the 9th, one day after us.
Envious, but i know one day i'll have the chance too.

5) Greece


Santorini!
would love to see the aegean sea and this beautiful island myself!
Truth to be told, my interest in Greece grew due to the taiwan drama:' Love at the Aegean sea'
HAHAHA


6) Rome

Simply because of the breathe-taking historical monuments!!!
^^
7) Venice, Italy


Venice, the city of water.
It was once my top must go country and now, i still consider it as one.
I want to ride the gondolas and visit it before it sinks. (hopefully it doesn't happen)
>.<

And last but not least, RUSSIA!
1) Moscow

The state that i would most like to visit in Russia.
Lenin monument, the Kremlin etc.
Historical venues, i want to visit them and not restrict them to only history notes.

If i can plan an overseas humans trip, it will go like this:
S'pore -> Hanoi -> S.korea -> Moscow -> Germany -> Washington D.C -> Japan -> S'pore
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
That is, cost-considerations are not taken into account.
=p

Wake up!!!

Wake up, zhongyun, why don't you??
You want the best of both worlds.
Well, let me tell you, that's impossible!
There is a price to pay for everything, it's better to learn this lesson sooner than later.

Everyone's moving on, so why don't you do the same too?
Change your attitude and accept the fact that things are no longer the way it was in the past.
Accept your status now and the fact that we are still normal friends.
This is enough, be contented.



WHY DON'T YOU????


As much as i don't want to admit nor like it,
I think you might be right, afterall.

I thought i could fly...

- x

Sunday, 22/11/09
Went to East Coast Park with Mama.
It was such a loooooong journey, and the 2 of us did not even know how to go in the first place.
=x
Had such a loooong talk with her.
4 hrs, with nothing but bared hearts, calm sea and blue sky.

<3 the sky.
Somehow, the vast blue sky above me always seem to give me hope.
Perhaps its because the sky is never-ending, possibilities stretch on.

I thought i could fly,
so why did i drown?

Unhealthy.

I think being stuck at home all day really makes you lazy and unhealthy, man.
I don't feel like going out at all this few days.
This is bad, VERY BAD.

T.T

Dilemma, much??

Heal the world.

The world will become such a better place,
If only we, humans, are willing to make the effort.
Give a little bit more love,
Give a little bit more care,
Give a little bit more compassion,
Be a little bit more understanding,
Be a little bit more compromising,
Be a little less selfish.

What has society forced us to become?
How much stress can a person take?

Food for thought:

Is human actions the cause for the current stressful society or is it a result of the current stressful society?


P.S RIP Daul Kim.

LOL!

OMG, i'm reading this NJ senior's blog and its freaking funny.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
It's been a looooong time since i've laughed at someone's blog entries.
No wonder his readers increase day by day.


I feel like such a stalker. =/

Believe.

As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It’s not that we don’t want to, but too much has happened and we can’t.

- Now and Then.

It's sad, when life don't turn out the way you want it to.
Sometimes, you tried to make things work.
You changed, compromised and learned from your past mistakes.
You believed that this time, things will be different.
But, you forgot the most important thing.
A scarred heart can never be healed.
And in the end, you are trapped, between what could have been and what would never be.

MV!!

Had an awesome day today (Yesterday coz its 12.40 am now??) !!
HAHAHA
Our mv was quite a success?
Stayed at Li er's house all the way till 9.30pm before we went hougang mall for late dinner.
It was the first time i went hougang which is freaking far away from my house.
The trip to and fro is like 3hrs in total. =.=

But her house was SUPER nice.
Like the nicest house i've seen from all my friends house that i've went to.
Our mv making process was tiring but fun,
I want sleepover at her house soon!!!!
Her couch shall be mine!!! MUAHAHAHA!
Hopefully, it's possible.

I hope tmrs' outing will be a success too,
and jaq will like our present.
HAHAHA
Ok, meeting them early tmr to settle everything in the last min.
Shall go sleep now.
:)

TATA!

Happy Birthday!!!!!

I find it so cool that 2 of my good friends that i often hang out with are born on the same day.
HAHAHAHAHA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HILDA AND BOK!!!!!!!
:)


I'm sooooooo happy that they are officially the same age as me.
LOL!!!

Meeting Hilda and the rest later to film the video.
I hope its a success and its gonna be soooooo fun!!!!!
:)

My Sister's Keeper.

"You dont love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not"
— Jodi Picoult (My Sister's Keeper)

Teared. T.T
But why, why? WHY must they change the ending??
I think the ending in the book would have been more meaningful.
Overall, the movie was still super touching.
:)


I really really hope it snows in S.korea.

Happyness.

Falling down.

Thought i should do a proper update on my first wk of holidays aka freedom after pw.

Tues - 10th Nov

Went back sch in the afternoon to help chunjing and jacy's grp with their op.
Afterall, theirs were not over yet.
And because of that, i was late for gz for 1.5 hrs.
=.=
HAHA
When i eventually made it for gz, there was only 1/2 hr left before cca ends.
So i didn't bother carrying and setting up baBOOM.

Wed- 11th Nov

Met Hilda and xiao qian for lunch before we headed for hilda's house.
Yulin and her bro came too.
We had a secret project on hand and that was....
A farewell scrapbk for Jaq aka Xiao cai.
Bought rose paper but me and hilda didn't know how to fold it, disastrous!!
LOL!
And we are planning to do a video for her too.
On Mon. OMG, i'm sooooo excited to do the video.
It's gonna be soooooooooooo fun.
:)

But, i really dun want this farewell.
I'm gonna miss jaq, i really will. T.T

Thurs - 12th nov.

Met Hilda for lunch.
Our original meeting time was 12noon but eventually, we only saw each other at 12.30pm.
Reason being, i got lost. =x
Hilda tried looking for me but it only made matters worst, HAHA.
So both of us kept calling and walking and i FINALLY saw her.
Ate lunch before we headed back to sch for OEP briefing.

One thing's confirmed: The 3 of us- bok, hilda and me are sharing a room.
And coz we need to perform smth during the vietnam exchange programme,
the humans scholars came up with this fashion show and me & bok are the emcees.
OMG, seriously, i can't imagine myself as the emcee.
=/

Fri- 13th Nov.

Reached sch SUPER early in the morning for breakfast with chunjing and jacy.
Brought so many food but in the end, the 3 of us couldn't even finish half of them.
HAHAHA

Went for SH1 sch tour briefing afterwhich.
Can't believe we actually have a script to follow.
But, i seriously think the way Bok actually portrayed our sch was more interesting. ;)

Met Hilda in the evening and off we went on our LOOOOOOONG journey to Changi Airport.
Ate dinner at T3s' kopitiam and i can't believe Hilda only brought $3 to eat at the airport.
=.=
She ordered this ' sha zi mian' and it was sooooo spicy that we exchanged our food and i had to finish it for her.

Then we went to Macdonalds' to wait for Bok who just sent her mum off.
Drank milk shake and we did our emcee script.
Bok's dad came to pick us up soon after.

Ok, i'm super tired now. Shall go sleep. HAHA.
Anw, i realised my schedule is pretty packed before my OEP trip.
And after, i'm super free. Think gonna spend most of the time after on studying.
I really need to stop procrastinating and start on my holiday hw.

Somehow, in one way or another, things are not really going on well in my life.
I feel that you dun really like me as much as a friend anymore.
And i'm pretty worried.
On another totally different issue, i think i need to be strong enough to make a decision asap and stick with it.
To move on or to move on with you in my life?

EXHILARATING!

PW IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I will never, EVER have to touch this horrible subject again.
And you cannot imagine how happy i was when the examiners announced ' You may go now.'
HEE.


:)

Next, have OEP briefing on thurs.
I seriously can't wait for the trip.
WOOHOO!!!
Life's good. ^^

爱。

~x

开始的开始总是甜蜜的
后来就有了厌倦、习惯、背弃、寂寞、绝望和冷笑
曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了
曾几何时，在一段短暂的时光里，
我们以为自己深深的爱着的一个人。
后来，我们才知道
那不是爱，那只是对自己说谎。


~x

爱情总是想象比现实美丽，
相逢如是，告别亦如是。
我们以为爱得很深、很深，
来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅、很浅。
最深最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。


~x

时间会让你了解爱情，时间能够证明爱情，也能够把爱推翻。
没有一种悲伤是不能被时间减轻的。
如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
如果所有的悲哀、痛苦、失败都是假的，那该多好？
可惜，世上有很多假情假义，自己的痛苦、失败、悲哀，却偏偏总是真的。


~x

他纵有千个优点，但他不爱你，
这是一个你永远无法说服自己去接受的缺点。
一个人最大的缺点不是自私、多情、野蛮、任性，而是偏执地爱一个不爱自己的人。
暗恋是一种自毁，是一种伟大的牺牲。
暗恋，甚至不需要对象，我们不过站在河边，
看着自己的倒影自怜，却以为自己正爱着别人。


~x

爱情和情歌一样，最高境界是余音袅袅。
最凄美的不是报仇雪恨，而是遗憾。
最好的爱情，必然有遗憾。那遗憾化作余音袅袅，长留心上。
最凄美的爱，不必呼天抢地，只是相顾无言。
失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。
因为有所期待，才会失望。
遗憾，也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。
追寻爱情，然后发现，爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。


~x

最浪漫的爱是得不到的。
最浪漫的情话，是当哪个已经跟你分了手的人打电话来问：“你好吗？”
你稀松平常地回答：“我很好。”
而其实你还爱着他，你一点也不好。
男人伪装坚强，只是害怕被女人发现他软弱。
女人伪装幸福，只是害怕被男人发现她伤心。

After the storm.

- x

I believe, in the rainbow after the storm.

I'm scared.

It's like i'm trapped, caught in this whirlwind with no place to escape.

How??

I want to not care and just give up,
but the perfectionist in me won't let me.

It's infuriating.
I have no idea how i'm gonna survive through this and yet, i know i will.

What an irony huh,

LIFE IS ONE BIG CONTRADICTIVE IRONY.

PEE Doubleu.

I HATE PW!!!!! To the max, TO THE MAX!!!!!!

It's like how much i hate chem, only 1000 times worst.
How much i hate GP, only 100 times worst.
How much i dislike econs, only 100000 times worst.
And my hatred for PW is equivalent to my LOVE for history.

See how much i HATE pw???


ok, Sorry, i have to rant a little.

Off to do PW at sch, BLEH!