Last day'09.

On the last day of 2009, i thought i should dedicate a post of my 17th year on Earth.
If there's one word that can be used to sum up this year, it would be 'CHANGE'.
There were so many changes in 2009 that i could barely catch up to them.

I got myself immersed in a new surrounding, met and knew new people, established a different relationship with my old friends, learnt the pain of letting go etc.
The list could go on forever.
And what i think that changed the most, was my view of things.
I think i've gained a new insight of life and myself.
But, it's just the beginning.
I'm still a long way away from finding myself.

And so, to sum it up all together.
2009 was a year of new experiences, no matter good or bad.
For the new year ahead, my main aim and focus would of course be the A levels.
I want to clear my mind of all other things and just momentarily concentrate on the exam that i've been working hard for for 10 years.
I want to make myself proud, to live with no regrets.

I want, to believe in myself.
I know, i can do it.
Jiayou!
:)

So broke. T.T

I'm soooooo broke now, it's pathetic.
Spent way too much this 2 days.
Gosh! I can't believe i spent so much man.
Aurgh!

So, went 4/5 class BBQ yesterday afternoon.
Slacked ard and met up with classmates but i didn't eat anything.
Went off at about 7pm++ and took bus to JP.
I dun really like JP now coz it's sooooo big and crowded as if half of singapore's population is there.
=x
Ok, i've exaggerated things abit. BUT, there's still way too many people there for my liking.
Ate at the newly renovated Kopitiam, tried this steam boat thingy which is pretty worth it!!

Then, val, pam, jesso and me caught SHERLOCK HOLMES!!!
OMG, it's freaking nice!!! Everyone should watch it man!!!
:)



Trailer for Sherlock Holmes.
Isn't Robert Downey Jr. hot???
HAHAHA

After the movie, we ran for the last bus and went jessica's house for a sleepover!!!
Played truth or dare for 1 hour ++ before we really couldn't take it and slept.
Shared bed with val, damn cramped. And it was a water bed! First time slping on a waterbed. LOL!

Went Kallang today with our original intentions to ice-skate.
But the ice-skating rink was too crowded for our liking,
so we ate at 'Japan village', it was not bad.

Went SAFRA kbox with val and pam after.
FUN!!! But it was soooooooo expensive!
When the bill came, all 3 of us were shocked.
HAHAHA
Was super angry just now, mostly with myself i think, for spending so much.
Planned to bring Bentos out from now on.
I'm not going to spend unnecessarily from today onwards.
Esp when i have no money as well.
T.T

Ok, going to Hilda's house tmr to do hist. proj!!
I want to finish it tmr!
Goodnight.
:)

Ben Underwood.

One thing that I truly get back from Ben being blind is that he truly sees people from within. When he hears someone say that someone else is ugly, or anything negative towards someone else. He says, "That's whats wrong with sighted people, you all look at one another and judge what you look like," I see that statement being so true. The most powerful part of it is that he can't judge from looks, only from spirit. This world would be a much better place if we all couldn't see.

- Aquanetta (Ben's Mom)

Just read up on Ben Underwood, the extraodinary boy who can see without his eyes.
He is able to use a form of Human echolocation which enables him to see.
I find the above quote from his mum so true.
For us, we judge people with our eyes.
We judge people by how beautiful they are from the outside, instead of their inner beauty, their soul.

I really admire Ben for being such a strong boy and never letting his disability get into the way of leading a normal life.
Perhaps he had lost his sight at a young age, but i feel, he had gained other valuable stuff in life too.
As the Chinese quote goes: ' 有得必有失，有失必有得.'

Ben was born in the same year as me, 1992.
That would have made him 17 years old this year too.
However, he passed away on Jan 19'09, 1 week before his 17th birthday.
I feel saddened by this news when i chanced upon him, he was such an extraodinary boy and he deserved to live.
But at least, he made his story known and inspired millions of people worldwide.
RIP Ben.
You're an inspiration to all humans living, to see a persons spirit, instead of judging them by their looks. :)

Ben Underwood, extraodinary boy.

Post A-levels plan 1!

Ok, so today me and hilda went back to NJC to pay for our trip.
And we've came up with our post A-levels plan.
Hee.

After A levels, we are going to work super, SUPER hard for 5 months.
From Jan-May, non-stop.
And even if the pay is super low, like maybe $5 per hr.
One day we'll be working for 8 hrs, each week 5 days and that adds up to 20 days/mth.
So one mth pay will be $800, 5 mths will be $4000!!
o.O

And with our hard-earned money, we will be going on a 8 days korea trip!!!!
WEEEEEEEEEE!!~~~~
:)
That will be in June 2011.
And that's one and a half yrs away.
T.T

Nevermind, it's good to think far and plan for the future.
5 mths for that 8 days, sounds pretty stingy but i guess, that's how life works.
And if we can get a job together at the same place, working might be fun???
Who knows?

This plan is still tentative, who knows what might change in the next one and a half yrs.
Maybe i'm still suffering from my post korea craze.
HAHAHA

Maybe, i may go back to shanghai for at least 3 mths afterall.
That was my original plan, but for now, i think this plan sounds nicer.
Because i don't have to spend my dad's money.

Okok, so let's assume i have a plan in place.
Now all i need is to get A levels over and done with.
Sounds easy, so why do i have this feeling it's gonna be a hell of a ride?
T.T

For Seoul, i'm gonna achieve good results and work hard.
Let's go!!!!!!
Gambatte!!!
:)


<3 Seoul.

I'm Back!!!!

Peek-A-Boo!!!!!

I'm Back!!!!
And i miss korea!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T
I love seoul sooooooooooooooooooo much!!
Saranghe seoul! <3

Need some time to resume my life.
Having post-overseas withdrawal symptoms now.
:(

For the past 11 days, there was nth except eat, shop, sleep and playing cards.
HAHAHAHA
We even forgot the date and day it was.
Korea was freezing cold, the coldest morning was when we were at mt. sorak, it was freaking -15 degree celsius.
o.0
That explains the pic above where every inch of us were wrapped up.
LOL!

Vietnam was ok, i've never seen sooooooooooooo many motorcycles on the streets in my 17 yrs of life.
I miss my hanoi buddy, chi too.



Don't feel like writing much about the trip.
My sadness and misses grows by the min as i flip through the photos.
I miss you, seoul!!!!!!!!!!

change.

Everybody changes, it's just a matter of time.
Afterall, 世界上唯一不变的东西就是变。

Busy packing. Went IMM with Hilda today to buy last min stuffs for the trip.
And i saw quite a few pple i know at IMM.
Didn't say Hi to any of them,
=x
I realised i dun like to see pple i know outside of sch/planned to go out.
Die, i think i'm becoming more and more zi bi.
T.T

Flying on tues, 4.05pm.
Our trip is damn weird, we are only paying AFTER our trip.
HAHAHA
and its not a small sum afterall, $2100.
God knows why.
My dad say is coz the travel agency trusts us.
Afterall, where can NJC run to?
They can always just come to our sch to find us.

No idea why, but i'm not like super excited nor dying to go on this trip as it nears.
Just hope this trip will be fun and no accidents/illness etc!
This is most probably my last post before i fly.
Coming back on 19th Dec, 13.25pm!
Till then!
:)

Actually, all i've always wanted in life was to be happy.
You know the kind of happiness that sets your heart pumping,
that makes you LOL suddenly and smile uncontrollably on the bus,
that makes you think that just for a moment, life is wonderful
and the kind of happiness that leaves you yearning for more.
But the fact is, my only aim in life is harder to achieve than anything else in the world.
Happiness. All i've ever wanted.

Cinderella Complex.

Cinderella Complex




For our promos GP comprehension, passage A was an extract of ' The Cinderella Complex' by Colette Dowling.
When i first read it through during the exam, the only thing in my brain were ??????
So, i calmed myself down and read it through again.
And suddenly, i'm enlightened, the lightbulb- appeared- on- top- of- my- head type.
I scored better than i expected for my GP paper 2.

Basically, the whole idea behind 'The Cinderella Complex' is the fact that woman in modern society are born with the instinct/idea that they are going to be 'saved' one day, by a 'prince charming' whom will come along and swept them off their feet and bring them to a magical castle and live happily ever after... something like that.
Women are afraid to be independent.
They are afraid that they will be unloved when they become too independent.
And so women wait, for love, for their prince charming.

I find it so true!
And my meaning of enlightment during the exam was not by the fact that i finally understood the passage,
instead, it was that i found it perfect for describing modern women.

Honestly, this 'cinderella sydrome' can't be helped.
Not every women are born strong and able to survive in life independently.
Not being stereotypical, but generally, i think women are the more dependent sex.
But, i have seen women who are SUPER independent.

And, our drama shows are not helping much either.
Just think, how many of those korean drama shows falls along the line of:
Rich guy(Prince charming) falls in love with a Humble/Sweet/Beautiful girl(Cinderella) , but their love is hindered by parents/social background/third party(wicked stepsisters/mother/prince) more often than not and they conquer everything to live happily ever after or they die together, like romeo and juliet.
With the tagline: Love is everything.

With so many modern 'cinderella' stories, it's hard for girls not to fall under 'The Cinderella Complex' har?
But, sometimes i think there must be a line drawn between reality and fantasy.
That's when the cynical me comes out.
I hope for true love but i don't really believe in the power of love.
They say love conquers everything, i hope so too, but i don't believe so.
Once, someone asked me to choose between love or bread, i chose bread.
Simply because just love alone can't keep you alive.
And what else is more impt in life than your own life?
See the part where i say the very, VERY realistic me comes out?

Ok, i'm rambling on with no destination.
I just found it interesting, this 'cinderella complex' thing.

Was quite busy this wk.
Not with work but with my preparation for OEP nxt wk.
I've already started packing!
Which is pretty early, but i need to start or else i won't know what i still lack.

Digged out all my sweaters/long johns.
Had such a hard time handwashing them, this is the bad thing with having a maid.
You become dependent and won't do housework.
Like me.
:(

Ok, enough said. Shall go back to slogging-my-ass-off washing sweaters!
Where every cinderella story come true.
;)