Round and Round

I feel like i'm always going around in circles.
Again and again, my feelings twirl round and round....
Eventually, i end up in the same place: Anxiety and Fear.

Why? When? When did i become such a scaredy-cat?

What am i scared of?
Sometimes, i think i'm really funny.
My dad once told me:

'The reason why people are afraid is due to the unknown. People fear death, because nobody knows what happens after you die. Do you go to heaven, become a spirit or just gone? Is there even a heaven to speak of?'

Here comes the funny part: I know the consequence and yet, i fear.
Why? I think it's because i don't want that consequence. I know what's gonna come but at the same time, i fear it.

They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
You learn from experience, to prepare yourself for future similar scenarios, so that you will not be afraid of what's to come.

So, why then?
Why am i still afraid of what's to come?

Why do i feel weaker than before? Before i know the unknown.