Thrown

I feel like i'm thrown back to how things were 2 years ago, when i left SSLC.
Only this time, the period is much shorter and the boss is much nicer.
I guess, i must be a really sentimental person. For i'm sad at leaving even after only being in the company for 9 days.
It seems like the older i become, the more sentimental i become and the more i feel sad at leaving.
The realistic part of me knows that i will forget about them after about a week.
Everything will go back to normal, life goes on.
But, the sentimental part of me is making my heart ache.

Tmr's Christmas.
And after that, new year.
And another year, gone just like that.

I used to give annual reflections of the year gone by.
But as i grow older, the more i seem to escape.
Recently, the feeling of loneliness seems to be creeping on me a lot more.
Maybe it is because almost everyone around me is attached.
Maybe it is because Val is not here.
Maybe it is because, i am really alone.

I don't know.
I want to be happier, but i seem to be sad all the time.
I want more, but i don't know what i want.
I want to be left alone, yet i feel lonely.

What exactly do you want?

Huh?