Life's a mess.

2 words pretty much sums up my life right now: a mess.

- Our PW is dying, drowning my grade with it. ST refuses our topic at a time like this, how how?? Meeting PW comm. on monday. T.T

- CT results was totally bad. I can't say that it was not beyond my expectations coz i totally expected 3 subs to fail. However, compare it with the rest of the sch!!! And my highest is a C. Look at that.
Promo criteria: S,E,E. But to keep 4 H2s, i need S.S.D.D. OMG. That means i HAVE to pass chem. Don't mention GP, i totally have no interest in it.

- Chem and Econs lect. test nxt wk. Both falls on the same day. With my current understanding of both subs, just brace myself and expect nothing but a fail.

- A-levels SPA and SPA trial coming. Titrations after titrations after titrations. And guess what? I totally have no idea how to ans the qs in the wkst. Most of the time, the ans are copied from somewhere.

- Morning assembly resumes nxt wk. I totally have no idea what the sch is thinking. So many pple in our sch are falling sick!! Brain-less.

- And as if those are not enough, just look at my pathetic friendship state. Add to my woes, come on.

Tragically, at a time like this, i can't help but say: LIFE SUCKS IS HORRIBLE.
I think i'm experiencing pre-midlife crisis.

Hopefully, things pick up from here.
I mean, if you are already at the bottom, there's nowhere else to go but up right?

Can't believe i'm strangely optimistic at a time like this.

Love. Hate.

~Syva

Love. Hate.
I've realised, only a thin invisible line exists between them.

It took half a year of despair and troubles.
Was it worthwhile?
Nope, not at all.
Finally, my heart is dead. No more hopes for this friendship, none at all.

Part of my past history, no longer in sync with my present and future.
And no, i'm not gonna venture into hate now.
I'm stepping on the thin line.
Before smth else happens and i fall off.
Into Love or Hate?
That depends.


It was a stab to my heart.
And you know it.
I wish, i can hear no evil.


"Is it possible, in the final analysis, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another? We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person's essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?" — Haruki Murakami (The Wind-up Bird Chronicle)

I'm late,for reality.

Hold up the harsh truth.
You know you can.
Found myself, what matters is how i carry on from here.

I should stop living in my own bubble.

STARS!! ;)

Today, 28th JULY'09 is a significant day.
Coz, i learnt how to fold stars today!!!!!!
;)
WHEE~~~

I know i'm slow, but slow is better than never.
HA!

Ok, off to fold stars. do my chem and econs.

Toodles!

Pieces of me.

~Almost1216


Went Clarke Quay with my family today.
Purpose: Singapore food festival aka Peranakan cuisine.
:)



I was a bit disappointed when i saw them using machine manufactured spices.
And here i thought, they'll be showing traditional methods of cooking.
Sigh.
But, the outing was fun overall.
Though we didn't do anything much, as a family together, that's more than enough.
^^

Oh ya, today's the 1st time i've ever went to clarke quay!
Unbelievable but true.
haha!
And the place is super ex.
I dunno if its my bad memory or what, but i don't rmb the roadside ice-cream as $1.50.
:/

The night view is super nice!
We sat beside the river and watched the bungee jump for awhile.
LOL!

After dinner and on the way home in the taxi,
I was lost in thoughts, as usual.
As we grow up, we tend to lose pieces of ourselves.
We change, normally oblivious to ourselves.
Are the changes good or bad?
No one knows, but one thing i'm sure of, they are parts and parcels of growing up.

You realise the fragility of humans, the cruelty of reality and harshness of words.
You lose your naviety, hopes and believes you had as a child.
You easily grow tired and sick of life at times.
Your wants and desires increases but happiness decreases.
Sometimes, you even tend to hate yourself.

I think i had never been more at peace with myself than when i was in the taxi.
I smiled unknowingly, as if i had let go of another part of me.
Suddenly, i was full of hope and anticipation for another day,
even though tmr is another hectic and tiring day.
You may lose pieces of yourself, but in the process, you gain new parts of yourself as well.
Parts of the future you, good or bad, you may never know.

But at the end, it's still you.
At peace with oneself, accept what you can and let go of what you can't change.
That's when, happiness comes knocking.


xoxo
zy

Sometimes.

Sometimes,

People says things that hurts you not because they hate you, but because they love you too much.

Goodbyes.

Credits: korny-pnk

I don't like goodbyes.
It always makes me feel like tearing.
And today, we said goodbye to Mr leow.

Mr leow is a really good Econs teacher.
And even though he had only taught us for 5 months,
he made a significant impact on me.
Especially with all the many consultations i had with him.
I will continue to persevere and work hard for econs!
And all the best to his future endeavors! :)
I'll miss him.
T.T

I crashed phys lect. again today.
And it was super special.

Mr wong was the lecturer for this topic: 'waves'
And he started the whole topic by performing Jay chou's '安静' on the grand piano.
HAHA!
It was like a mini concert as all the NJCians in the LT clapped and cheered.
At the end of the lect., there was even a birthday dedication.
The girl must be really blessed.
LOL.

I've said goodbye too many times.
Why does all good things have to end?

xoxo
zy