27 random facts about me:

1] I am a Shanghai-born-Singaporean.

2] I have a brother whom is younger than me by 10 years, he's in pri 1 this year and his workload makes me envious. =/

3] I want to get married as early as possible!!!!! ;] Too bad, nobody wants me at this stage. Before 26! must work hard! Where's my knight in shining armour???

4] Throughout my 16 yrs of life, i had many ambitions. Ranging from nurse to florist to hotel manager. And the most ambitious one to age---- an astronaut! ( unbelievable ). But hey, a girl can dream, can't she?? :]

5] I have super and i mean SUPER drastic moodswings. I can be moody for one min, crying the nxt min and laughing the nxt nxt min... and it continues.

6] Since childhood, i always had this thought that i was adopted. And my parents didn't help much either by lying to me when i was young that they picked me up under a bridge. =x i wonder why they did that??

7] I dropped physics right before my O level registration. Simply coz i scored an F9 and i couldn't score. Right after i handed in the form, my phys teacher handed back a phys common test paper i did before i dropped and guess what, i scored an A2.

8] I learnt ballet for 1 year when i was 2 yrs old. The reason i stopped? Coz it was super painful to stretch and i would cry for 1 hr before the 1 hr ballet lesson. Guess i just don't have the flexibility har?

9] I can't swim. =x I think i inherited this from my mum if this can be inherited, both of us are scared of water.

10] When i was 7 yrs old, this sudden interest to learn piano kicked in. I nearly stopped when i was 8 yrs old coz i was afraid of the teacher. Somehow, i persevered and now i've graduated with a Grade 8 piano cert. One of my greatest achievement to date. ;]

11] Guzheng is my cca in NJC and i've not regretted joining it. One of my dreams is to be able to play as many instruments as possible, and i'm gonna work hard on that!

12] I've never had short hair since i was 5 yrs old. Hmm... and i don't think that's gonna change in the short run unless i suddenly have a weird courage to try something new. Imagine me with short hair, omg.

13] I only got my ear piercing on 1st june 2008. And it costed $45 paid by my mum. It was a coming-of-age decision for my 16th birthday.

14] I am EXTREMELY scared of pain. And that explains the point above, coz i always thought poking holes into any part of ur body must hurt a lot! Surprisingly, it didn't hurt as much as i thought it would.

15] I've lost both my maternal grandma and paternal grandpa to cancer and i miss them so. :[

16] I don't have any specific idols that i look up upon. Oh wait, on second thoughts, my idol is my father! Simply coz i would love to be as successful in life as him, not only academically and career-wise, but his motto in life. 做事情一定要对得起自己。就算失败了，只要自己努力了，就可以拍拍胸膛说：我尽力了，不后悔。

17] I am a very pessimistic girl. Mama once commented standing beside me makes a person pessimistic oso. :[

18] I think i was nearly not born. Coz my mum had a miscarriage before me and there was china's one-child policy. So i guess i'm lucky har?

19] My absolute favourite food would be 小笼包！Like i have a crazy fetish for it. Whenever i go back shanghai, i will make sure i get to eat it at least once and i would keep bothering pple till i eat it!

20] My name in chinese is 钟韵and not中云, it means the melodious sound of clocks. My parents gave me this name as at that time, the street across where we lived had a huge clock tower and it would always struck at 12pm.

21] I love to whine, and i guess i should try to stop this habit, coz it annoys the hell out of people.

22] Before i reach 20, i wanna go disneyland at least once. And i guess this dream is gonna come true soon, coz i'm going hongkong disneyland in june!!!! :]

23] I tried smoking before. =x When i was 4 yrs old, unbelievable young age. I was curious and my grandpa was smoking beside me. So i tried it and had a coughing fit, that burning sensation in my throat was never forgotten and i had vowed never to smoke since then.

24] I dislike coffee. All coz of my cousin. She handed me a cup of black coffee when i was 4 yrs old, at that curious and naive age, i tried it without any prompting and spit everything out. It was terribly bitter and i've never touch coffee afterwhich.

25] My favourite colour is BLUE!!! I guess that's why i love the sky. :] My room colour is blue!!!!

26] I've never tried kinderjoy before this year. =x And people can't believe that.

27] Why 27 random facts?? Coz today is April 27, my birthday is on May 27, this is the 27th post and i love the number 27. :]]]]]]]

NJCOGZ <3





You know, i've realised time changes everything.
From strangers to close friends,
and then from close friends to strangers again.
We didn't lose anything,
it's just back to the starting point again.
However, reality always forgets the accumulated memories.
其实，你想回去的原点已经不在了。

I think SYF is a really cruel competition.
It displays the side of humans that you would never expect.

For example,
during the results anouncement, the whole hall would be dead silent.
And when a sch gets Gold or GWH, that sch explodes in shrieks, screams, jumps, hugs and of course, tears.
With happiness from minority schools, tears of disappointments would obviously be expected.

If i have to use one phrase to sum up the entire SYF journey,
It would be: " An overwhelming emotional ride".

I dun think SYF is a fair judgement.
It's just 5 judges that decides our award,
But who are they to judge us?
Or rather, all performing arts?
Judges are humans after all, comparison and biasness are inevitable.

And the most unreasonable thing that i can't stand is comparison.
Even if you are good, it's just your luck if the sch before you is better.
And that was how we were deprived of our gold in 2007.

Still,
Don't ever give up!
Like dance, and see?
we got out gold back!!!!
:]]]]
What's yours, will eventually come back to you.


努力不一定会成功，但不努力，就一定不会成功。


加油！

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GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG!!!!!
I am so so happy for them.
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They got back the GOLD that cwss dance so deserved.


I never thought i would say this,
but i miss dancing.
It's the greatest feeling in the world, one that you won't understand, unless you experienced it yourself.



Things haven been great so far,
with my mind bombarded by sch work to catch up on, tests after tests and friendship problems.
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I'm still avoiding and hiding away.
But i noe worrying makes no difference.
Life still carries on.


Our friendship may not last forever,
it may end right this instant or have even ended.
But i'm not gonna cry,
coz those wonderful memories remains.


Smile, coz i deserve to. :]

GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for NJCOGZ'09 SYF IP and JC team.
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You noe, i think today is gonna be rmbered as one of my most memorable day.
Even though it was not my first syf,
those butterfly in stomach moments when waiting at backstage for our turn , overwhleming sense of disappointment at our messed up zhan tai feng, overwhelming sense of achievement when we played fei tian with so much emotions and heart-stopping moments when the mc announced our results.
I will never forget them.

Surprisingly,
we cheered louder and seemed to be happier that IP received gold instead of us.
I guess in everyone's heart, there was still a teeny weeny hope that we'll get that gold with honors.
Even though reality crashed it,
and we made a lot of small mistakes that summed up to one huge mistake,
i believe all of us enjoyed ourselves during that 10 mins on stage.
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My last syf,
GOLD.
:))))))))

亲爱的钟韵：
我知道最近你很不开心，感到很茫然，不知所措。眼前的路虽长，终点却遥不可及。但是你可要知道，现在才刚刚开始。你站在起跑点，虽然开始跑的比较慢，但绝不可半途而废。
你还在成长，还在寻找自己。把每一个挫折当成成长的一部分，让自己学会从困境中挣脱，从挫折中找寻答案。请相信自己的能力，你并不是事事不能。让时间证明你的能力。还记得小时候老师所说的话吗？每个人心中都有一瓶哈哈粉，当你打开瓶盖，哈哈粉就一定会散发出来，让你打从心底感到快乐。请不要忘记小时候纯朴的快乐，别让残酷的现实妨碍你打开瓶盖。人不是天生就有烦恼，感到忧伤。只是大家忘了哈哈粉的存在，忘了打开瓶盖的方法。放开紧握的手，让自己快乐一点。属于你的，就一定会回来。不属于你的，就算怎样挣扎也不会属于你。

记得，有一种拥有，叫做放手。

祝你，
天天快乐


徐钟韵 启
2009年4月19日

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I dun believe in eternity anymore.

Perhaps keeping to myself is a wiser choice, at least it protects me from pain.

Pain from realising that at the end of the day,

I'm only left with me and myself.

Sometimes,
no matter how hard you hope for something,
reality shakes you awake.

Sometimes,
no matter how hard you believe in eternity,
time beats you to it.

Sometimes,
letting go is a wiser choice than holding on.

I think, this is really the end.
There's no problem and thus no solution.
It's just, time has filled up the wide gap between us.
And time is one thing no one can overcome.





Be brave.
I'm not gonna cry anymore,
Coz it doesn't make any difference at all.

Did i make the right choice?












Doubting, should be the last thing on my list.

I'm grateful.
Life doesn't always deal the best cards to you,
but there will always be concessions--- pple who lend a helping hand along the way.





THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!
zi jia. :]]]]]]]

LOL.
The past week can only be described as busy, busy and BUSY!
Think its gonna be worse with SYF just ard the corner,
21st April!

Hmm...
Just some significant events that happened this wk.
Had a big quarrel with my parents.
Over a HUGE misunderstanding,
at least that's what i think it was.
shouldn't elaborate on it further,
hope it gets better soon.

Did 2.4km today!!!
and im so so happy i passed!
As in my timing got me a D, which is the minimum for NJ standard.
I nearly gave up on the 5th round coz it was so tiring.
But with 3 person running with me, its nt possible for me to stop. >.<
Now, i just need to do my 5 stations in 2 wks time and at least get a C for everything.
SILVER!!!!
:]]]]

Zijia aka auntie HO got A for her PW!!!!!!
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HAHAHAHAHA
am so so happy for her!
but that reminds me, i still have a PI which im struggling with.
=x

went out with her today after i received my scoldings from mr ng,
[long story...]
to celebrate her PW results and my 2.4 results!!!
i noe its nt fantastic or anything worth celebrating, but to me, it is a big deal!
went IMM and ate Burger King.
the fun part comes when we were in GIANT.
so so funny...
like two aunties shopping, haha.
and i tried to squeeze in the trolley, but im too big. >.<
then some pple were staring at us coz we were wearing NJ pe shirt.

And auntie ho is very HOT.
kept 'electricuting' me.
LOL.










Im trying real hard,
but its just nt working.

表面上的快乐，
并不代表我内心真正的感受。
有谁知道我多么希望自己能坚强一点，
对自己有多一点自信，
让自己快乐一点。

这世界太不公平，太残酷了。
人家说：知足常乐。
我也想。



雨不停的下。





我想，我累了。

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今天一大早便回NJ练古筝，

我要GWH的，所以要加油了！

还剩17天，我们可以的！:]

功课好多啊！

但我又不想做 =x

很想出国散散心，

让自己暂时忘记烦恼。

对了，

在读campus superstar 叶嘉敏的博克时，觉得她写的几句话很激励人心：

你可以在别人面前逞强，在朋友面前装傻，甚至和家人假装，但请不要对自己撒谎。一个人时就尽情地哭，尽情地呐喊吧。不要害怕。你可以失败，但不要被打败，可以失望，但不要绝望。眼前的路可能让你迷惑，不知所措。但请不要茫然，并继续硬着头皮坦坦荡荡。尽管最后全身是伤，至少你很勇敢，变得坚强，毫无遗憾。

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好了，要逼自己去写作业了。

加油！

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Was reading a pri sch friends' blog,
and i saw a recent pic of 1/3 of 6I whom went for gathering...
Suddenly, a sense of nostalgia overwhelmed me.
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Most of the girls remained the same,
but the GUYS changed a lot.
And i mean A LOT!

LOL.
The boys i know have evolved into guys,
man only after they have gone through NS.
:]

I think im really suffering from depression.
BOO~~~~
Somebody, bring me to see a psychiatrist.


The feelings almost gone,
guess it was just that moment, point in time.
Im happy, freedom again!
All i need, are my friends, family
I can survive, BELIEVE.
:]

BLUE ROSE!!!!!!!
I think its super nice.
LOL
:]


Went SYF rehearsal at RP cultural Centre today.
I must say, their campus is SUPER BIG and rather nice too.
And the most happy thing about today.........*Drumrolls
I skipped lessons for the whole day!!! *beams* with a reason too. LOL

The day started off rather bad,
coz i must reach sch by 6.50am,
and the stupid bus did nt arrive on time.
So i didn't manage to meet Zijia coz i was late.
And in the end i reached sch at 7+am.

But it was fun for the rest of the day.
Like suping was freaking funny,
she brought $50 just to eat GOOD FOOD at RP.
LOL
then we weren't sure where were all the good food at RP,
so we pai suping to go ask RP pple,
and the conclusion we recieved: one foodcourt have good goof, low price and lousy ambience.
One cafe have good price, good ambience and lousy food.
In the end we chose the cafe.
LOLOLOLOLOLOL!

And we still had practice when we arrived back in sch.
Coz we realised how terrible our standard is,
like the IP grp improved by soooo much!
AND i want that GWH!!!!!!!!!!!

To make up for our loss 2 yrs ago,
We must get GOLD WITH HONORS!!!!!!!!!!!
JIAYOU!
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