So 1st Aug marked the end of my 3 months long summer internship.
More than any other, it was an experience.
On hindsight, I feel like i didn't learn much from the job itself but i've developed in terms of personal growth.
From all my ex-PT and internships, one thing that i feel is really different btw society and the protective school life is the many things we can't control - environment, people.
Reason is because everyone is different and we are all forcibly enclosed within a common space to work.
At least in Uni, i still have the pleasure of picking my friends haha. And I am one who is extremely selective about my friends.
The day before my last day of internship, I was so upset I teared.
I've never felt so insignificant and under appreciated in my whole life.
A sup who doesn't care about me, I actually understand how insignificant interns are but I feel I shld have knowledge of company happenings or when she takes leave, I should have the right to know.
I didn't.
The only thing I was supposed to know is my own project. Which pissed me off even more coz of a certain slacker.
He is like the irresponsible member that everybody hates (but there's bound to be one) in group projects.
Gosh, I felt like strangling him.
Still has the cheek to go play LAN on tuesday, when he is far from completing his job.
It's ok, I do need to handle my emotions better. There are bound to be such people in society in the future. Just hope you won't have to be in the same team or project as them.
I had no expectation on the last day, but when my sup invited me to lunch, i was happy.
Only thereafter, I knew the full story. It was coz my fellow intern's sup asked her to ask me coz she feels so bad for me.
Haha didn't expect any less.
But then, i was reminded of this quote: 'If someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have'.
In this case, is not love. What i got away is she didn't treat me the way i want her to, the way i would do to others (to an intern. I would totally treat my future intern super good lol), but that's probably her, it's not my fault. Maybe this is the way she treats others.
I've learnt a valuable lesson that not every working environment was like my previous internship. Not everyone will be genuine or sincere towards you.
To some, you are just a minion, put even crudely, just a disposable worker.
Even more for an intern.
In some way, I feel glad they treated me that way, even till the last day.
Because it spared me heartache, everytime goodbyes are uttered and i left a place.
How many goodbyes have i said? Bega, Beam, SSLC, Yamaha, Qeren, Tutees, SHC, NHB.
All of these were pple once in my life, a moment in time.
Yeah. So that's all.
Now, i'm going to be back in school in a week's time.
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