If you love someone, let them go.

It has been 2 months since my last post.

And 5 months since I've graduated.

A lot of things has changed, and life is too fast for me to even catch my breath at times. 

I feel stagnant, yet I'm moving on. 

Changing for the better, that's what I hope and feel. 

It's been ages since I've been so optimistic, patient and accepting of myself. 

Guess it's true then, when the only way to go is up, we always have coping mechanisms and the only way is indeed up. 

How long more? I don't know. Honestly, I'm living week by week. 

Am I happy? I don't know. 

I really don't. 

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Saw that it is prof dimoia's bday on fb. 

It brought back memories, because just a year ago we threw a surprise party for him in class. 

Was it just a year ago? It felt ages back, almost like an eternity away.

Life sure does move fast, when everything is changing ard you. 

Did I like you one year ago? 

Haha honestly, I can't rmb. I can't rmb when I started having this infatuation with you. 

Somehow, we had this connection. Or maybe, it was all in my head. Because now, it's gone. 

I know you are not the right guy for me.

Liking a non-committal guy is like committing relationship suicide. LOL 

And you don't see me that way, we have established boundaries. 

But you don't know, the me before knowing you had almost no guy friends. 

I was anti-social and did not know how to talk to guys.  

Whereas you, are the social butterfly. The one who lives in hall, who has 300 likes on a fb profile pic. The one who has countless girl friends. The Mr popular scholar, who has it all. 

We are not compatible, and yet, I wish we are. 

Maybe, 人真的是犯贱的。

We want what we don't have, what we can't have. 

We yearn for what is not ours, yet neglecting what we already have. 

Sometimes, I think of what can be, if we meet at a different age and stage of our life. 

Will you be committal? Will you like me?

Will I like you?  

But I guess, we'll not be the you and me right now. 

Perhaps the me then, may not even like you. 

No point in guessing the unknown. 

I know, all this will come to an end. And that end maybe sooner than we know, since nie is ending soon. 

But, just once, maybe it's closure for myself, I just wanna say, I like you. 

More than just friends. 

But, almost is never enough. 

It never is.