To go or not to go, that is the question.

Recently, life has been so monotonous - work, work and work.
I have been so packed with work, that OT has become a norm.
And with OT, came gastric pains. :(

Today, was originally gonna cancel on dinner plans.
But so glad I went ahead because they brought me out of the zone.
Haven't seen Darrell Lian for very long and he is still as ambitious, or perhaps more ambitious?
But somehow, he has mellowed down a bit more too. Like he is way more grounded in certain aspects.

They brought us to this really cool rooftop bar called Lepark and is like super hard to find coz is directly above People Park Complex.
Mings and I had to take this cargo lift up and I was telling her how this is the perfect settings for a horror film and she totally tsk-ed me LOL.
Really enjoyed the convos, although it was mostly them talking and me listening coz I am not really at their level hahaha.

Today boss shared during the GLC meeting that conversations determine culture of a place and I totally agree.
Was quite sick and tired of the small talks with colleagues at work - like you don't really get to know people for who they are. People just go through the mundanes at work.
Or do people become homogenous after they work? Like blend into the environment.

Looking at D Lian, who just finished a 2 months internship stint in a fintech in Bangkok and now thinking of starting a start-up - saying that it doesn't matter should it fail but he wants to give it a shot.
I start to think what am I doing with my life?
Boss recently told me he decided to renew my contract for another year - meaning I failed to get permanent position.
And the tough decision comes - to go or not to go?

Was going through some work with boss today, and I realised I really cannot stand the culture.
It's too stagnant, too 爱面子, too hierarchical, too restrictive.
Even if I stay, it won't be for long because I cannot see myself progressing or growing in this organisation.
It's really quite sad, considering how positive I was 10 months back on getting this job.

Sometimes I really question the job hopping situation among millennial.
Is it really us being the strawberry generation? Or rather the jobs?
Maybe there shldn't be any finger pointing, most things are never as clear cut as they seem anyway.

Need to make an informed decision & to be less impulsive. 

As for now (& the coming weeks of OT), you can do this Zhong! 

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