想念

还记得我们的第一次接吻，在我醉醺醺时，你偷亲了我。
之后，第一次night safari清醒时的接吻。
在之后的之后。。。
但是，新鲜感只保留了2个星期。
之后的之后，就是无数次的争吵和不愉快。

也许，我们真的不适合。
也许，我喜欢上的是爱情，而不是你。

放手吗？一个人，我又没勇气。

我真的很自私。

突然好想念无话不谈的感觉。
我好怀念，好怀念，好怀念。

如果你身边有一位能无话不谈的那个他，请珍惜。

一生中，能遇到多少个呢？

Heartbreak Hotel

One of the topic that schools don't teach but the school of life teaches... is how to love.

We had our biggest tiff yesterday night, since we started dating 3 months back. 

And, B brought up the 2 words - 'break up'.

Throughout this past 3 months, I learnt a lot about myself and how ridiculous & vindictive I can become in a relationship.

It scares me, a lot. 

I realised I am very self-centered, and a relationship will always need compromise.

And, I need to mind my words.  Coz they do hurt, emotionally. 

Sometimes, I do wonder if I love him. 

If you love someone, why would you hurt them? 

Or is it because we do not know how to love them the way they understand? 

Love, is a loaded term. 

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After 3 weeks break, I will be going to my new workplace tmr!

Feeling extremely nervous, and my mental state is very bothered by B. 

He hasn't replied my msg for 3 hours.

I'm gonna wait it out, and trying hard to distract myself. 

All the best to me, jiayou!