Circuit Breaker x 2

Never thought I will experience 2 pandemics in my lifetime. 

First was SARs when I was in P5/6 way back in 2003...

For that I can only recall sch closure for a week and taking temperature every day, that's all.

But this COVID-19 is on a whole new level.

Everywhere in the world people are on lock down and quarantining to ensure social distancing so the virus does not spread further. 

For me, I've been WFH for close to a month, which looks like it is going to be extended for another month till 1 June. 

The entire experience is so surreal =/ and cabin fever is a real phenomenon which I never knew could exist. 

Sigh, in the blink of an eye, 6 months of 2020 will be gone. 

The feeling is soooo weird omg >.<  

But to be only battling isolation and boredom is a privilege in this times of crisis. 

I'm also honoured to be working 5.5 days a week (being a safe distancing ambassador on weekends now)...

Comparing 2019 vs 2020 me, I never knew life could become so different.

As always, whenever I thought I had life figured out, it throws a curveball at me and throws me off balance haha

With this WFH, it seems like I can't sleep before 1.30am lol

My whole sleep cycle is totally wrecked >.<

I still miss him, sometimes.

Just, he is no longer persistently on my mind.

I've been talking to 2 new guys throughout this CB period - S and R

R reminds me quite a bit of D, that's when I realised I've been unknowingly comparing them...

But if you ask me, I don't think the timing is right for either of them or anyone haha

Guess it's just lonely hearts and freshness in meeting someone new

I wonder when my heart will be full again...

失恋82天

今天是我失恋的第82天。
日子变了好多。。。因为疫情我们都在家工作。
应该很快外面都出不去了。

Seems like my head made a decision to move on, but heart is not relenting.
So, I asked him out on Mon for dinner and he agreed. But I can feel he totally does not care about me anymore and the distance between us is so wide now.
It doesn't do me any good because it's quite obvious he has moved on, I should too.

I still tear and cry about him sometimes, because I was so happy last year this time, I can't believe it's just 1 year and I am so miserable now.
Maybe all along I've put too much of my happiness in other people's hands, that when I'm all single and alone, idk how to be happy anymore.
Could be because of this social isolation right now too, the whole world feels like it is going into chaos.

2020 is such a good number for such a bad year.

I wish, I can go back to 2019. So far, the best year of my 28 years of life.

Holding on doesn't do me any good. So, if I do not meet anyone else who can make me love him like he did, I will just remain single.

Life is too short, be happily single ZY.  You were for 24 years, what makes this different?

失恋第82天，我已经哭了6个月了。从他和我说不要孩子那刻起，我就开始哭。
差别在于，我现在不在别人面前哭了。我也不和朋友们聊起他。

但，我的心还是很痛。我希望时间能过快一点，把我的悲伤带走吧。