NMS day!

Had a great day at NMS today. Was there from 10.30am till 6pm! Gosh, even as a history major, didn't expect myself to stay at a museum for so long.
Haha Was there as a tag-along to grace, maria, michelle djong, nat and bryam's NIE group for their recce.
It was quite fun, but so tiring by the end of the day.
The new museum exhibition still carried some exhibits from the old but a lot of their displays/videos improved and some were pretty cool!
I will recommend everyone to check it out.

The biggest highlight of the day.... must still be the food. HEH
I haven't had food for thought for some time and omg, it was still nice! Their brunch, esp the garlic mushroom.
But, by the end it was pretty salty and I was so full from it.
I still ate somemore when i went home, gosh. =/

And now, I have a huge dilemma - HDB or CPF?
CPF called and officially offered me the contract and asked me to head down to sign it.
However, I am still undecided so i gave HDB a call, asking if they are keen on having me and if I am given the offer?
In the end, the HR told me earliest they can tell me is by next Fri. Sigh.
Means I have to delay the CPF signing to next next week, that's the longest I can drag.
Hopefully HDB will give me a call, but in the meantime I have to decide.
Which do I want?
Gosh, this is so hard for someone with 选择恐惧症。
I shall do a pros and cons list tmr, although if I have a clearer idea of the details may be better.
Coz now HDB haven't officially gave me an offer so I'm not so sure either, like the pay etc.
Shall see how it goes then.

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Always remember this, Zhongyun. 

Don't chase people, never chase affection or attention. 

Because the right ones will show theirs without you asking, the right ones will stay. 

As for the wrong ones, let them go, no matter how much you don't want to. 

Because, they don't belong anyway. 

Whatever will be, will be.

17.09.15

Was reading through my blog archive yesterday and suddenly I rediscovered the joy of blogging. 

Hahaha Because as I age, I tend to forget a lot of stuff, and re-reading made me LOL. 

So, I've decided to blog again, since I have so much time anyway.

Life as an adult to be is not smooth sailing. 

I have been job hunting for the past few months, did an internship with HOO productions from late June to early Aug, it was pretty interesting and I made a few friends like Long, Vi, Pam and Charlene. 

However, I didn't see me being there for long, hence I quit. 

Haha biggest incentive working there should be the boss, who is Eunice Olsen. Haha she is really very pretty in real life. And I did learn, every place is a learning experience. 

So, from Aug till now, I've been job hunting. Applying to jobs, crafting cover letters, editing resume bla bla. It's pretty dry to be honest. 

But! I've also been volunteering with BLESS Shining Star Reading Programme and I really enjoy it! 

My fav girl is Kamiliah and she is a darling, extremely pretty and smart. 

I realise I quite enjoy volunteering because I like the instant gratification I get from being able to make a difference to someone else, no matter how small it is. 

Other than that, I have been exercising.

Recently Val and I joined yoga together, but the teacher-uncle is so funny. 

His lessons seem to be for hao lian-ing how good he is instead of teaching us. LOL

I feel like my $$ is being wasted there. 

Oh well. At least it's kinda funny HAHAHA

And, besides that I spend all my time preparing for interviews and going for interviews. 

Went for CPF last week and HDB today, hopefully I'll get them. 

I think, I've grown a lot actually, for the past few months. 

Becoming more assertive, patient and just overall, more positive. 

Hopefully, I'll keep this haha. 

That's all for my life update for now!

Happy I earned $40 from my F1 tracking. HEH. 

TATA. 

6 years on

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Redid the personality test I did 6 years ago.

Some have changed, while others haven't.

Looks like my straightforwardness is taking the lead haha

世上只有爸爸好

HAHAHA.
Thanks Dad. 

If you love someone, let them go.

It has been 2 months since my last post.

And 5 months since I've graduated.

A lot of things has changed, and life is too fast for me to even catch my breath at times. 

I feel stagnant, yet I'm moving on. 

Changing for the better, that's what I hope and feel. 

It's been ages since I've been so optimistic, patient and accepting of myself. 

Guess it's true then, when the only way to go is up, we always have coping mechanisms and the only way is indeed up. 

How long more? I don't know. Honestly, I'm living week by week. 

Am I happy? I don't know. 

I really don't. 

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Saw that it is prof dimoia's bday on fb. 

It brought back memories, because just a year ago we threw a surprise party for him in class. 

Was it just a year ago? It felt ages back, almost like an eternity away.

Life sure does move fast, when everything is changing ard you. 

Did I like you one year ago? 

Haha honestly, I can't rmb. I can't rmb when I started having this infatuation with you. 

Somehow, we had this connection. Or maybe, it was all in my head. Because now, it's gone. 

I know you are not the right guy for me.

Liking a non-committal guy is like committing relationship suicide. LOL 

And you don't see me that way, we have established boundaries. 

But you don't know, the me before knowing you had almost no guy friends. 

I was anti-social and did not know how to talk to guys.  

Whereas you, are the social butterfly. The one who lives in hall, who has 300 likes on a fb profile pic. The one who has countless girl friends. The Mr popular scholar, who has it all. 

We are not compatible, and yet, I wish we are. 

Maybe, 人真的是犯贱的。

We want what we don't have, what we can't have. 

We yearn for what is not ours, yet neglecting what we already have. 

Sometimes, I think of what can be, if we meet at a different age and stage of our life. 

Will you be committal? Will you like me?

Will I like you?  

But I guess, we'll not be the you and me right now. 

Perhaps the me then, may not even like you. 

No point in guessing the unknown. 

I know, all this will come to an end. And that end maybe sooner than we know, since nie is ending soon. 

But, just once, maybe it's closure for myself, I just wanna say, I like you. 

More than just friends. 

But, almost is never enough. 

It never is. 

10.59pm

会心疼了，是不是代表就长大了？

今日，看着老爸到处飞，头发都苍白了。

也许是因为不是每天都看到他，很明显能看到他的苍老。

今天，老爸说他拔掉了第2颗牙。我问他为什么老是牙齿发炎，他说也许是没照顾好。我觉得是因为压力太大。

然后我就问他，如果我工作了，是不是会好一点？他说也许他就会去找不会压力那么大的工。

我的心，就这样痛了。

This job search process has not been easy.
As I slowly acknowledge my lack of skill sets and abilities and how cruel the world can be.
It's not easy, life is hard.
But I'm holding on, holding on still.

因为我的心会痛。

夜深，人静。

好奇妙。
深夜，总会让人沉思。

12.06am.
突然感触良多，不知何去何从。
也许在这一刻，阿妹的歌最能安抚我。

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