Jenny.

Watched 'Jenny' with Hilda at Plaza Sing after sch today.
Expected it to be at least M-18, but it was NC-16.
:)

It was very sick and gory.
HAHAHA
Half-way through the movie, Hilda actually blamed ME for watching this movie!
Humph.

Met Poh Hui there, so coincidental!!!
So, we ate dinner together at this restaurant around Dhouby Ghaut Mrt.
There was FREE FLOW of drinks and ice-cream!!!
o.0

Ate soooooo much, think i've gained at least 1kg.
T.T

I dunno what to say nor how to feel,
Its sad when life doesn't go your way.
Its sad to have to watch you sad, to have to know there might be a chance i won't see you again.
I'm gonna miss you, i will.
But, please be strong, i have the faith in you.

“I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.”
- Neil Gaiman

Wish.

Pls, grant me this wish.

Past, Present and Future.

Today was such a nerve-wrecking day.
Had pw op dry-run right before we received back our promo results in the afternoon.
We were late and hence ran all the way from TC block to LT1.

I didn't even have a chance to catch my breathe before i received back my Gp paper.
Well, my results were not bad and some were totally surprising.
One good news: I'm promoted!!!! :)
Hopefully, with my 4h2s as well.

After receiving back our results, went IKEA with Hilda and Bok.
We went to eat MEATBALLS.
LOL!
It was my FIRST meal of the day!
Can you believe it??
I only had one meal and that's dinner.
I bet if this continues, i'll get thinner.
Omg, that rhymes!!!! * Beams* HAHAHA!!

Anyway, besides my results and the fun IKEA trip, i have other good news!
I'm going for the humanities OEP!!!
What's better, Bok and Hilda are going too!!!!!!
WOOHOO~~~~~
:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

8-18 or 19th Dec.
Hanoi and S.korea,
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!

Originally, i wasn't that sure if i'm going.
I've decided that if i fail my history and if my promo results was not good, i wouldn't go.
But now, i have no reasons not to!

The cost of the trip was cut down to $2000 and my promo results was not bad.
:)
All the more i should go, as a reward perhaps??
Anw, my father is more than willing after he saw my promo results.
And i'm more than happy.
:)

Now, i just need 2 more wks before my happiness completes.
I can't wait for PW to be officially over!

2 more wks to 9th Nov.
5 more wks to OEP!

:)

The most tragic thing of all.

I think i'm slowly becoming the type of people i hate the most.

If you asked the old me then, i would have told you i hate people who are EXTREMELY result conscious.
It's like, their whole world revolves around getting an A.
Their only aim after being born into this world is getting that A.

I'm not saying they shouldn't aim for that A.
Yes, you should aim high in life.
However, when your whole world revolves around it,
you've exceeded the sign that shouts : ' DANGEROUS!!!'

You see, i think i'm becoming more and more of a perfectionist day by day.
I can't stand things not done in my way
or rather, i can't stand myself if i don't do things perfectly.
And i think, this is so irritating and tiring.
Now i know what miserable lives perfectionists live.

Being a perfectionist, i expect the best out of everything.
And obviously, results is included in the whole package as well.
So, i'm expecting more from my results day by day.

And now, expecting an A is ok.
But what i hate most about those result conscious people is how narrow-minded they are.
They don't care about others' feelings, they don't care about their surroundings, all they care about is that stupid grade on their exam scripts.
And by narrow-minded, i mean inconsiderate as well.

When they don't obtain an A/B, they whine and complain as if its the end of the world.
They can't and won't accept failures.
Look around them please, how many others have obtained worst grades than them?
Please, i'm not saying they can't be displeased by their result.
But do it quietly, be more considerate.

Another thing, due to their result conscious nature,
they hardly play around, the only conversation that you can make with them is about results.
It's so stressful to hang out with them.

So, i really don't want to become this type of people.
Goodness, no. =/

Receiving back promos results on wed.
My feelings now?
Like bubble tea.
Mixed and blended in a whirl.
The only difference?
I can't figure out what's the end product.

what's wrong? Everything.

What a big mess my life is in right now.
I seem to be treating everyone around me badly recently.
And people seem to be miles away from me, even if they are standing nxt to me.
Especially today.

GOSH.
:(

I just wish all this can go away asap.

Pls, grant me the vision, to look beyond all this imperfections.

Breakfast! <3

I made my own breakfast today!!!
Haha.
Scrambled eggs with ham, croissant and apple.
Something like the picture above.
This shows that i can cook!!!
And most importantly, it was NICE.
:)

Next goal, cook breakfast for my whole family.
Must perfect my scrambled eggs skill first, LOL!

Anyway, received the itinery for the OEP,
Must confirm by this wed, yet, i'm still not sure if i wanna go.
Dad seems to have other plans, maybe going on a short trip overseas with family.
Hmm.
Think receiving back most of my promo papers this wk.
Bless me, hope that i won't have a heart-attack.
LOL!

xoxo
zy

And so...

One subject down, 4 more to go.

Yesterday, shuqin asked me this qs: ' if you really get retained, will you choose to stay in the sch or go poly?'
I thought of this qs before, but it was never seriously considered.
Or rather, even when i say i'm gonna get retained, it was only a half-hearted statement.
Something which i didn't really believe will happen.

Smth happened in class yesterday, that made me realise how close this threat is to anyone.
And when she asked me this qs, i didn't know what was my ans.
Dilemma.
There are pros and cons for both choices.

Poly:
Pros

1. Get out of this dreadful sch.
2. Learn something i'm interested in?
3. Should be less demanding than JC.

Cons

1. Wasted one year in JC with 3 more yrs to go in poly.
2. After those 3 yrs, does not necessarily guarantee university education.
3. I'm not exactly sure which course/career path i'm gonna continue.

JC:
Pros

1. Guaranteed university admission if i choose to stay.

Cons

1. One more year in hell and learning the exact same things again.
2. Peer-pressure. New friends and all my close friends in J2. :(
3. Wasted one whole yr.
4. Being looked-down upon.

Pros and Cons.
SIGH.
Honestly, i think retaining is tougher for girls than guys.
Not being stereotypical, but girls are naturally the more emotional sex right?

Shall not think about this first.
I need to pass 2 more subs, i think.
Damn scared for GP, CHEM and HIST.

At least i don't have to worry for maths any longer - B.
:)

Then again, maths was the least of my worries from the beginning.

Movies.

Watched this CUTE movie yesterday.
It was so funny and nice!!!!!
Especially when the baby brent popped out of the chicken.
OMG!
I wish for an ice-cream shower too!!!
RECOMMENDED! :)


Watched sorority row today after sch.
Hmm...
I think overall the movie achieved its purpose as a suspense thriller.
But the storyline had a quite a few obvious loopholes.
Preferred cloudy to this.
HAHA.
But it was still nice, worth the ticket money.

GOSH.
I've been spending way too much money on movies lately.
NEED to cut down.
And yet, i still wanna watch 'my sister's keeper' and 'jennifer's body'.
SIGH.

Oh ya,
the humanities trip been confirmed.
8th-18th dec. Hanoi and korea.
Cost is about 2.3k.
Still not sure if my dad allows me to go.
Especially with my upcoming-reveal-of-terrible-promo results.
We'll see about it then.

:)

其实，道歉并没有用。
失去的东西失去了，
伤害了还是伤害。
道歉并不能让时间倒转，
也不能让发生的事情过去。

- 下一站，幸福。

Misses.

I miss dancing.
I miss the aches that shudders me even days after practice.
I miss laughters that topple-me-over.
I miss that heart-felt smile.

I miss the SYF days.
I miss the hectic-till-can't-breath days.
I miss the encouragements.
I miss the motivations.
I miss the bond, that feeling of together-ness.

I miss music lessons.
I miss all my piano teachers.
I miss the practice-till-my-finger-cries feeling.
I miss that one hour of escape, one that brings me away from reality.
Its just me and the music.

I miss my memories,
I miss my past.
& I miss you.


I bet you don't know.



We were meant to say goodbye, right from the start.

Figuring out.

Had OP workshop presentation today.
I hate public speaking man, freaks me out, totally.
I survived through it, shockingly, i even managed to answer the Q&A session without stammering too much.
HAHA

Am having a splitting headache now.
This few days, i dun feel like i'm me, it feels so weird.
I guess, everyone have one of these days har.
Hopefully, i'll get over it soon.

& it feels surreal, honestly, i didn't understand.
But i guess at the end, it didn't make any difference.
what's gone is already gone, you can't get them back.
And all that's left, are memories, which you can never win over.

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to.

Happenings.

Watched ' The Time Traveler's Wife' on wed, 07102009.
That was the first time i went cathay.
HAHA.
The movie was not bad, it was rather confusing at first as i didn't read the book.
But you get the hang of the movie and the time travelling after awhile.
Warning though: The ending was super sad.
I watched it with hilda, jacq, yulin, li er, xiao qian and sabrina, most of us teared.
T.T

Today was game fest in sch from 8am- 12noon.
I didn't participate in any of the games, instead, i was holding the poms poms and cheering for the teams.
After awhile, it got bored.
HAHA
Spent the rest of the time playing tap tap on boks' iphone.
Vigorous!!!
LOL!

Was pleasantly surprised when IGNIS came out as 1st.
HAHAHA!
But, i guess everyone was happy.
:)

xoxo
zy

That perrrrrr-fect gown.

Why, won't you look at that BREATHE-TAKING gown??
OMG.
I was at hilda's house today when she showed me that gown.
I gasped.
Honestly, that was how perfect it was.

Just look at the hem of the skirt,
lightly dipped in pink.
The colour contrast between white purity and pink sweetness is just fantastic.
I was telling hilda, how much i would LOVE to get married in that gown.
SIGH.

I bet, even cinderella will be jealous.

WooHoo~~~~

Liberalised! :)
HAHAHA.

Today was quite a disaster.
Chem, there's nth much to say about it.
As for hist, it was rather funny.
Before the exam, all the art students + me were panicking like hell.
Almost to the state of hyperventilating.
Well, that's what a hist paper does to you.
LOL!

And after the paper, the first thing i said to bok was: ' If i retain, will you retain with me?'
OMG, the both of us burst out laughing man.
It was not the sentence that was funny, rather, it was the context when i said it.
HAHAHA.

Papers aside, i'm really happy promos is FINALLY over.
It seriously felt like eternity.
Ok, i'm gonna hibernate, like seriously.
It was super tiring and i felt so dead today.

Feel like borrowing a good book and having a good read.
This is the life, man.
:)

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

Anticipation.

Honestly, i've wanted to stay as' on hiatus' all the way till promos is officially over.
But, i can't control myself.
HAHAHA.

Nxt wk mon, is gonna be my worst nightmare ever.
Gonna mug like crazy during the weekends.
Hopefully, i can do it!!!
It's for my own good, i must MUST control my excitement and anticipation.

3 MORE DAYS TILL END OF PROMOS!!!!! 2 MORE SUBJECTS!!!
WOOHOO!!! :)))))