And so...

One subject down, 4 more to go.

Yesterday, shuqin asked me this qs: ' if you really get retained, will you choose to stay in the sch or go poly?'
I thought of this qs before, but it was never seriously considered.
Or rather, even when i say i'm gonna get retained, it was only a half-hearted statement.
Something which i didn't really believe will happen.

Smth happened in class yesterday, that made me realise how close this threat is to anyone.
And when she asked me this qs, i didn't know what was my ans.
Dilemma.
There are pros and cons for both choices.

Poly:
Pros

1. Get out of this dreadful sch.
2. Learn something i'm interested in?
3. Should be less demanding than JC.

Cons

1. Wasted one year in JC with 3 more yrs to go in poly.
2. After those 3 yrs, does not necessarily guarantee university education.
3. I'm not exactly sure which course/career path i'm gonna continue.

JC:
Pros

1. Guaranteed university admission if i choose to stay.

Cons

1. One more year in hell and learning the exact same things again.
2. Peer-pressure. New friends and all my close friends in J2. :(
3. Wasted one whole yr.
4. Being looked-down upon.

Pros and Cons.
SIGH.
Honestly, i think retaining is tougher for girls than guys.
Not being stereotypical, but girls are naturally the more emotional sex right?

Shall not think about this first.
I need to pass 2 more subs, i think.
Damn scared for GP, CHEM and HIST.

At least i don't have to worry for maths any longer - B.
:)

Then again, maths was the least of my worries from the beginning.