What do you want?

It's 11.42pm here .

I'm in my room, typing away.

My brother is in his dreamland; my parents sound asleep.

It's a quiet night, nearing the end of 2011.

So what's it gonna be? A heartfelt post of mine.

This year zoomed by incredibly fast.

Recounting the beginning, i held my first ever job at Bega, as an admin & accountancy assistant.

It was an eye-opener, my first step into actual working society.

However, the low pay and boredom drove me to seek another job.

Where i ended at Beam.

Here, i can honestly say, has been the most exciting and eventful 2.5 months of my life ever.

I was scolded by BBW countless times, even till i cry.

Had such a fun time with my colleagues.

Went to CozyCot event as an event helper (first time experience with backstage preparations for events!).

Went to SSLC anniversary @ Orchard TAB and saw/took pics with local celebrities (Edmund Chen, Sing Hui, Michelle Chong, Joy Chua etc)

And it was my first time, being an assistant artiste manager.

Things didn't end well there.

I was fired, albeit in a polite way.

After which, i went on my first no-adults-entirely Taipei trip with Hilda and Jodie.

It was a weird trip, since i wasn't close to Jodie at all.

Bok was originally supposed to go with us, but with life in the way, it didn't plan out as we wished.

Nevertheless, i had fun!

First time putting on make-up also, for 6 days!! (Almost the whole trip)

Worked at Yamaha Music School briefly for about 1 month after the trip.

It was a quiet job, much less exciting than at Beam.

But, there was a unique sense of belonging and i liked the job.

After all, i was close to music, a part of me ever since i began learning piano at age 7.

But as all things go, they never last, especially good times.

As far as i can remember, the 'attack of the depression monsters' came after the job.

Marked the start of a difficult battle which to this day and moment, i'm still fighting.

I was diagnosed with Seborrheic Dermatitis, a Chronic skin disorder that has no cure.

Together with my acne, my face was a mess. I looked like a monster.

My already fragile confidence level went straight to nought.

I had to quit my job because i couldn't face pple.

My 1st Sem at Uni was a disaster. With me skipping school ever so often because i could not bring myself to go to school with such a face.

My mum bought me to see my first psychiatrist, whom diagnosed me with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

I took my first ever anti-depressant and decided i'm never, ever gonna take a 2nd pill.

I isolated myself completely.

Even wanted to withdraw from school.

My family revolved around me, as i whine and cry and they had no choice.

Arguments occurred ever so often, tears became my best companion.

I was utterly lost, on worst days, i thought life was gonna end right then and there.

However, i guess, the fear of death was even greater.

Somehow, i hanged on. Barely.

As i tried my best to catch up on my studies and went for the exams.

I pulled through, i strived to stay in Uni.

After my exams, i went back to China. For 3 weeks.

Reason was to seek docs to see if there's any cure for my skin.

My mum ran with me to see countless docs : Western Dermatologists, TCM etc.

Now, i'm back. On the medicines everyday.

There, ZY's summary of her life in 2011.

Looking back, i had countless firsts this year.

No matter the good or bad, i'm glad they happened.

Everything happens for a reason, i believe they all had some learning values in them.

Currently, i feel lost than ever.

I dunno what i want, all along, my life path has been decided by s'pore govt.

Studies: PSLE, O's, A's --> Uni.

But once i'm in Uni, it's the 1st time that i had to honestly ask myself: what do i like? where do i want to go?

What do i want?

I dunno. I really don't.

And that's sad. It's sad to have no goals in life.

No passion for anything, why are you even living?

Being a parasite in your parents home.

What you have now, is all given to you by your parents.

Not based on your own capabilities.

I hope you can derive the answer soon, ZY.

What do you want?

Don't let another year get you by.

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012.

Pleasant Surprises.

Had a much better time than i expected at the French gathering yesterday.

So much laughters and fun!

HAHAHA

I love pleasant surprises that brightens up my day like no other.

:)

It's 6.41am now.

Woke up to bathe and gonna pack finish my luggage before heading to the airport!!

Probably won't be updating this space, not sure if China blocks Blogger.

Ok, gotta go.

Till 20 days later,

Zy :)

Le Bistro Parisien

My heart is pounding.

Head is spinning.

Eyes shutting.

Praying with all my might that the next 3 weeks in China will be a fulfilling one.

Hoping that the docs will be able to help me.

Everything will be fine.

Heading to Le Bistro Parisien for French cuisine at night!

With my French tutorial peeps.

Before flying off tmr morning.

Speaking of which, i better go pack.

Hate packing, i can't find the ultra thick socks i bought for Korea. T.T

BYE~~

Thankful. 感恩。Reconnaissant.

It's early morning - dawn and the sun was just beginning to rise.

Have been waking up exceptionally early this past few days, think my body is out of sync.

Anyway, felt like writing a thankful post, counting my blessings.

人生中，十件事有九件不如意。

Disappointments, unhappiness are more than expected,

however, if we only know how to count our blessings,

there's a silver lining, even in the worst possible scenario.

I'm thankful for my family. They are my rock, my strongest support.

No matter how sick i am, how bad my situation is, they are always there.

We may have our fair share of problems and quarrel often.

However, i know they love me. And i love them too.

It's only this separation from them for 2 weeks, that i've realized my reliance on them.

Family, you only have them once, for this lifetime.

So cherish them, love them with all your heart. Before it become too late.

I'm thankful for my friends. My small clique.

Although i've yet to find my best friend/soulmate, i'm glad i still have them to hang out with.

Friends, they brighten up your life.

It's only with horrible uni life and it's loneliness that i've realized how important friends are.

I'm thankful for my maid. She's diligent and makes my house spotless.

Of course, disagreements arise at times, but still, having a maid is a luxury, not a necessity.

I have nothing to complain but only gratefulness in my heart.

I'm thankful for my house, a roof over my head.

I'm thankful for my room, a sanctuary of my own.

I'm thankful for my body, i'm thankful for the ability to see, to hear, to walk, to smell, to taste, to speak.

I'm thankful for University, a chance to study and learn new things.

I'm thankful for the chance to live and experience all the ups and downs.

I'm thankful for the chances to fly and see the world.

I'm thankful for music, it synchronizes with my mood.

I'm thankful for every single thing, simply coz there's so much that i have and should be grateful for.

Count your blessings and not your tears.

But most importantly... I'm thankful for the end of finals! ;) Woohoo~~

Till i'm back (Flying off on Friday! Off to finally reunite with my family!!)

xoxo

Zy :)

C'est la Vie.

Bonjour!

Haven't posted in a looong time.

Having finals now, 3 papers down, 1 more to go.

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No idea why, had a sudden urge to blog a moment ago.

Perhaps, i miss putting my thoughts into words.

Honestly, it's been so long. I have no idea where to begin.

University life has not been a breeze, far from it.

Never knew how tough it could be, even worse with a lack of friends.

Acquaintances? Many. Friends? None.

Syllabus, tough as hell.

Wonder why did i even choose some of the modules.

Have not been feeling well for the past few months.

Sick, countless doctors.

Sometimes, i wonder how worst life can get.

I miss my family. T.T

All of them are back in China currently while i'm home alone.

I never knew how lucky i was to have a family near me, till they left.

Love my family, to bits and pieces. <3

Luckily, i'll be joining them soon!

Flying back next Fri, it's my first time flying alone!

Even though i've went overseas without parents for a few times since i was 14,

this is the first time i'm really flying by myself.

Quite excited and scared at the same time. HAHA

Have been really stressed out by finals, don't think i'm gonna do well.

Irritatingly, i think stress is affecting my sleep.

Have been waking up at superb ungodly hours, today was the ultimate - i woke up at 5am.

T.T

Anyway, what's done have been done.

I'm left with 2 more EU essays next Tues and my 1st semester at NUS is officially completed!

I'm so glad i survived.

Halfway through the semester, i've seriously contemplated quitting sch.

Things were especially hard for me and i was skipping lectures like crazy.

There were 2 wks where i attended school for less than 5 days in total.

Only went to school during days there was tutorial.

My results and assignments were lagging behind as a result, think my GPA is gonna be quite low. T.T

Shall stop whining here. HAHA

One good thing: I did exceptionally well for my last French test! :)

I thought it was extremely hard and i did it at an ungodly hour of 6pm after a long day at school.

开心！！

Ending here with this quote that i found so true:

Reality of fear: You’re not scared of the dark; you’re scared of what’s in it. You’re not afraid of heights; you’re afraid of falling. You’re not afraid of the people around you; you’re afraid of rejection. You’re not afraid to love; you’re just afraid of not being loved back. You’re not afraid to let go; you’re just afraid of accepting the fact it’s gone. You’re not afraid to let go; you’re afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

Au revoir! <3

心灰意冷

有时候，当你已经试了全部的东西
你只能认命，不是你的，永远都不可能是你的。

最后一次了，我只相信最后一次。
就全力以赴吧。
反正钱都已经付了。

相信医生，相信自己一次。
最坏的结果就是不好起来，日子还是要过。

唯一的安慰就是你能看出谁是真正的朋友，谁真正的关心你。
钱，以后还可以赚回来。
别把它当一回事了吧。

加油！你可以的，钟韵。

Greatest enemy

All along, I've been blaming circumstances, situations and everything else for the plight I'm in.
It's only now, I've finally realized the real problem.

Me.
I'm my own greatest enemy.
And I can't overcome my own mentality, my attitude towards life.
Others don't mind, it's you yourself who minds so much.

The problem is already there and life goes on.
Let your personality shine and make your face be the least interesting part of yourself.

Prove yourself, overcome your greatest enemy.
I know you can do it.
You can.

Life.

First time blogging from my new iPad!
Haha
Reason being I just turned off my laptop and I have a sudden urge to blog.

This post is just gonna be filled with random ramblings.
So, I just turned 19 and for the past half yr i've came to a realization:
Normally partings words such as keeping in touch are just humouring words, what happens usually is that either parties move on and forget each other.
I don't blame them, it's tough keeping in touch with every single person you meet.
But I just find it so dampening, how life usually gets in the way of things and moving on is part of life.

I guess that's why I like history, I like living in the past.
But you can't live in the past. Too bad, the harsh reality.
That's life.

So, don't take things or pple too seriously.
You'll forget most them anyway. Sooner or later.

Happy Birthday

So, i turned 19 two days ago, 27th May 2011.

It was day filled with surprises and disappointments.

I was surprised by birthday wishes from people i didn't expect and disappointed by the lack of a birthday wish from people i expected.

I guess that's how life is, expect the unexpected.

Nevertheless, I was happy with how the day turned out.

Thank you, to all those who wished me well.

Happy Birthday to me,

I'm 19, at the finale of my teenage years.

Please be good to me, and let this year be a fulfilling and happy one.

:)

Self-Absorption

I've been thinking long and hard before i decided to type out this post.

First of all, this post is triggered by the increasing number of teenage suicides that have came of concern to me and i do agree that suicide can be a sensitive aka touchy topic.

Nevertheless, this post contains my personal opinions and i apologise if it appears offensive or offends anyone.

So, i came back from Taiwan last Sunday and was happily unpacking my bags when one piece of news caught my eyes:

Teenage girl falls to her death at Ang Mo Kio

By Jeffrey Oon | SingaporeScene – Sun, May 15, 2011
An 18-year-old girl fell to her death in Ang Mo Kio Avenue 6 on Saturday evening.

Krystal Aki Mizoguchi, who was half Japanese, was found dead at the foot of her block at about 7.40pm at Blk 509, Ang Mo Kio Ave 6, reported Shin Min Daily News.

She is said to have fallen from her flat on the ninth floor and according to the Chinese daily, is believed to have committed suicide due to relationship problems.

Two suicide notes were reportedly discovered. Krystal, who was to turn 19 next month, was waiting to begin classes at a private university after finishing a five-month stint as a temporary clerk at the Ministry of Education.

According to her blog, the Yishun Junior College student grew up in a single-parent family and has been living with her 17-year-old brother for three years in her current three-room flat. Her parents are believed to be separated.

Krystal is also known to have begun dating from 13 years old and since then neglected her studies.

A scan of her Facebook page revealed several cheerful photos of herself in what seemed to be a usual teenager's life.

But the last entry on her blog, dated March 5 earlier this year and which was entitled "Crash and Burn", spoke of her broken dreams after poor A-Level exam results.

I cut and paste the key points, you can read the full article here.

I was deeply saddened by this news

However, at the same time, i was perplexed, by her actions and reasons for committing suicide.

After reading her blog and various newspaper articles reporting her suicide, i have came to the conclusion that she committed suicide due to a break-up and not up to expectation A Level results.

The latter being an underlying reason and the former the catalyst.

If you ask me, i would say that not being able to enter a local Uni is not the end of the world.

I mean if you strictly look at Statistics, only about top 30% of 1992-ers enter local Unis.

So, what about the rest of the 70%? Do they all commit suicide because they can't enter a local Uni?

As for relationships, honestly speaking, what do we know about LOVE at 18 years old?

I seriously believe it's all teenage puppy love at our stage now and it's not justifiable to give up your life for it.

Ok, i'm seriously the last person deem fit enough to judge someone's relationship and their choices.

I mean, Suicide is very much a personal decision and Krystal chose it.

I respect her decision and just wish her all the best in the afterlife, rest in peace.

The thing that i feel the most sad for is her mother and younger brother.

Her mother single-handedly raised her up only to have her being so cowardly and weak and committed suicide.

What about her poor brother who looked up towards her as a role-model?

All she left behind is an example of taking the easy way out when problems come about.

In death, the dead gets the easy way out as their suffering ended, but those who live continues their life with a piece of them gone forever. It's those who live whom carries the pain with them forever.

Maybe it is because we are of the same age and at the same stage of our life now,

Krystal's suicide struck me particularly deep, even till today when it was a week old news.

I thought about her reasons for doing so and how depressed she must be to commit suicide.

And the only thing i could come up with is: Self-Absorption.

I think this is a problem that most Gen-Y kids have (including me).

We are too self-absorbed with our own problems that we ignore everything else ard us.

We perceive other pple's judgement of us when others may not even care about you.

We enlarge our problems till it's the end of the world when it's just peanuts if you compare it to, let's say, the recent Japan Tsunami and Earthquake?

"Self-absorption in all its forms kills empathy, let alone compassion. When we focus on ourselves, our world contracts as our problems and preoccupations loom large. But when we focus on others, our world expands. Our own problems drift to the periphery of the mind and so seem smaller, and we increase our capacity for connection - or compassionate action."
— Daniel Goleman (Social Intelligence: The New Science of Human Relationships)

This quote adequately explains what i'm trying to say about self-absorption.

Maybe it's time for all of us to burst our bubbles and live a life beyond it.

Life is not all candies and fairytales, it's tough, hard and only the strongest survives.

To whoever is reading this (if ever anyone does),

The moral of the story this post is to stay strong.

It's not the end of the world when you don't get your way.

Learn to see beyond your problems, there is an extraordinary world beyond your own bubble.

Remember,

Death does not solve problems, it just creates more heartache.

We live in a beautiful world! :)

Back from Taiwan!!

SO...

I'm back from Taiwan!

:)

It was a fun but tiring trip.

What with our late nights, no sleep and crazy flight timings.

Hee...

But i guess, everything is an experience and it will be a memory cherished for life.

:)

And the more pressuring issue now is my University.

I'm planning to accept a choice from the 3 universities by this week and it will most likely be NUS FASS.

However, i'm still harboring btw NTU or NUS.

I mean, NTU communication studies is more specialised and more respectable in some way?

But my dad is more concerned about the branding.

Afterall, NUS is among the top 40 universities in the world.

And a degree from FASS is pretty much a general degree where my career can progress any way i want in the future.

The most impt thing is to work hard and graduate with a first class honors degree.

I think my dad make sense and NUS FASS has always been my dream school.

But what with my experience with NJC, more often than not, your perception of the sch changes when it doesn't meet your expectations.

I'm afraid that i'll regret my choice in the future.

Life is all about making decisions and living with the consequences, no matter good or bad.

I'm currently standing at a cross-road that leads to my future.

One states NTU and the other, NUS.

That crucial first-step is so impt and i can't make my choice.

:(

But i know, no one can help me make this decision.

I can only listen to opinions but at the end of the day, the choice is all mine.

Make a choice and live with it.

After all, the happiest person does not have everything, it's how they make the best out of what they have.

Goodbyes and new beginnings.

Goodbyes make my throat hurt... I need more hellos.
- Charlie Brown

Yesterday was my last day at work for my present company.
Sudden and saddening.

But i guess life goes on.
Moving on.

Flying off to Taiwan TONIGHT!
HAHA
Bye Singaland! See you in 8 Days time! :)

Heart to Heart

So, this will be a wordy post.
Emotional? Maybe.
Sentimental? Maybe.
Truthful and from the bottom of my heart? Definitely.

I'm gonna let my secret out....
*Take a deep breath*
I want to fall in love.
Deeply and passionately.

Honestly, i cannot imagine myself in love or being together with a guy.
Considering how little guy friends i have and how awkward i get around guys,
I would say it'll be a miracle if i can get attached.

But, wanting and actually getting something are always 2 separate issue.
Recently, i've been thinking it would be nice to love and be loved.
Maybe i'm tired of singlehood, or maybe i've been feeling really empty recently,
i want to experience the feeling of being in a relationship.

Girls dream to be business women, lawyers or doctors.
Successful people.
But my dream has always been to marry early.
HAHA
Not saying i want to be a housewife but i feel that it's nice to be married and start a family.

I wonder when will my love come along.

P.S On a side note, this post sounds so cheesy. HAHA
But i really feel it'll be a great feeling to be in love.
:)

Dizzy with Happiness!

I'm spinning, dizzy and bursting with Happiness!!!
:)))

I GOT OFFERS FROM ALL 3 UNIVERSITES !
WOOTS!

NUS- FASS
NTU- Mass Comm
SMU- Bachelor of Social Sci

:))))

SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!

AHHHH! ^^

Life's Good. ;)

Unexpected.

Life can be crazily unexpected at times.
Like how it is now, i'm working at where the big bad wolf is again.
-.-

Honestly, i think i am crazy.
And i have been struggling with the reasons why i made the choice to stay.



maybe it's coz of the pple there?
Everyone's nice there, except for the big bad wolf.

But, everyone's leaving as well.
And in it's place, new colleagues will come.
I've been feeling lonely ever since dear Meng Li left for good.
Things are not the same anymore, even though i've stayed.
I miss her.

Why do we miss a person? It's either because we realised that we never treasured the moments when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again.
Or we were too happy around them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.

I really wish that i can turn back time.
They say, you never do realise how magical a moment is till it becomes a memory.
Perfect words that describes my feelings now.

I hope i made the right decision and things will turn out for the best.
Fingers-Crossed!

That aside, none of the local Universities have offered me a place yet.
All this waiting is making me panicky,
Afterall, my results wasn't that good.


:(

Hopefully, an offer will come soon.

xoxo,
Zy

Forward.

Hello! This space seems so foreign to me now, have not updated it for sooo long.
Hee.

Anw, life has been a crazy ride so far.
I've quit my current job, last day is this wed.
I've learnt a lot from this job and met so many nice colleagues. :)
It's an experience i'll never forget.
But i guess, there's an end to everything and since i've decided to resign, there's no looking back.

Honestly, i've yet to find another job after this.
And i have no idea what to do with all the spare time i'll soon be having.
=/

I'll be going taiwan in MAY!
:)
Woots~
Can't wait! Hopefully, it'll be a fun fun trip.

Till then,
Zy

New job, crazy boss and star-struck *.*

Update, update!!
I found a new job, currently working at an entertainment company.
It's a contract of 2 months, afterwhich i don't think i'll be working.
Busy Busy, has been ot-ing everyday since i joined because there's
soooooo many things to do.

And because it's an entertainment company, i've met quite a few well-known artistes.
HAHA
Maybe that's the only good thing about this job??
What with the crazy hours and crazy boss.
-.-
Shouldn't elaborate much, lest the words are used against me.

Anw, daddy is coming home tonight!!! :)
Finally seeing him after 1 freaking month.
Going to NUS open house with my family tmr morning.
Still having a headache over what major to take and which uni to go.
Hmm, decisions decisions.

Maybe going korea again in MAY!
Ahhh, still rmb my post A-levels Plan 1??
Might be fulfilling it after all!
So excited, hopefully it'll turn out well.
:)

Till then,
ZY

A-Levels

When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronaut, president, or in my case, a princess. When we were ten, they asked again. We answered rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this: who the hell knows? This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love… a lot. Major in philosophy, cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind and change it again, because nothing’s permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be, we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.

So, i received my A level results on Friday and i think it totally deserve a post by itself.
A levels took up 2 years of my life and honestly,
those 2 years were the most dreadful and painful years of life till now.

During the past 2 years,
I cried a lot, whined a lot, regretting and thoughts of giving up ran through my mind countless times.
But more than anything, i was encapsulated by the fear of not being able to enter university.

My results are far from splendid,
but i should be able to enter a local university.
I am not eligible for most of the better courses, but hopefully, i can enter FASS.

Everyone's moving on and having a headache deciding which path to take.
Filled with uncertainties and yet at the same time excited,
i'm looking forward to university life.

Putting my A level experience behind,
the future awaits.

:)


XOXO
Zy

My heart is in my mouth.

It's D-Day tmr.
And i know no matter what results i get,
my life will change forever.

Well, all the best, zhongyun.

Impulsive me!!!

AURGH!!
Did something impulsive today, very impulsive indeed.
I.... I...

I did eyebrow embroidery.

OMG!!

Ok, maybe it's nth to others,
but i have never NEVER in my whole life did anything to my brows.
Not even pluck or thread it.
And the person say my eyebrows were extremely untidy.
Furthermore, my colleague wanted to do it.
So we did it.

Creative eyebrow embroidery at this small place outside JE NTUC.
Hmm...
The results were not bad i must say,
But, the price was...

我心痛我的钱。
T.T
She charged us $280 each.
Considering it's creative eyebrow embroidery,
she said it's not a bad price already.
Especially when other famous places like allure beauty salon charges like $600++ for it.

但，还是心痛。
决定省钱了，能省就省吧。

Hey you!!

Nice?
Saw this on tumblr and i thought its a great message to everyone out there.
:)
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Had an eventful day today.
Took a half day leave off work in the morning to go for a job interview for an airline.
Only obtained one job interview after sending like at least 20 resumes in the past few days.
-.-
Finding a job is tough.

Anw, i don't think the probability of me obtaining the job is high.
I'm the first interviewee and it's a permanent job which i can't commit for long.
To cheer myself up, i asked bokky out for lunch since i was at Tanjong Pagar and she was working at Raffles Place.

Had lunch and she dragged me to Recruit Express at UOB centre.
I didn't want to initially,
Had pretty bad experience and feedback on them,
But bokky says it depends on outlets and she says Raffles Place one not bad.

Trusting her on this once.
And the guy who interviewed me is Caucasian!
HAHAHA
Eye-Candy, no harm in trying out again anw.

Praying and hoping he'll call me quite frequently!
For job interviews only, nothing else.
I want to get a job soon!!!
One with higher pay, cross fingers!

Happy Valentine's Day!! ♥

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! ♥

Even though i think its WAY commercialised ( the price of roses hiked up by 80%!!!),
it's still the season of love!
May you and your loved ones be blessed forever!! :)

I spent this Valentines' day in a special way,
ate dinner with my colleagues!!
Even though we are still not close, it's still quite a fun experience!
Hee.

Sadly,
all of us are gonna separate ways soon.
I'm currently in the midst of looking for a new job and all of them are too.
Still, gonna wish them all the best!!

情人节快乐！！
大家都要幸福哦！:)

The days we had.

I really love
The days we had.

Laughters shared,
And tears we wept.

Hands held tight,
With a future so bright.

Never did we know,
Forever was a lie.

All things good,
were never built to last.

And when the end came near,
A reluctant goodbye was whispered.

Regrets mounted,
and tears welled up.

I really wished,
that we could turn back time.

I still remember,
how we became close.

A joke we shared,
and numbers exchanged.

Even though we tried,
to make things last.

However, deep down,
we both know its useless.

The scars ran deep,
etched in both our hearts.

Memories,
that's all there's left.

It's sad,
how people you know,
become people you knew.

It's sad,
how we could talk to each other for 5 hours on the phone,
and now,
we can't even look at each other in the eyes.

It's sad,
how i really miss you,
and you'll never know.

Time waits for no one,
and life goes on.

You'll never be able to live,
trapped in the past.

But i have to say...

I really love,
the days we had.

The best time, of my life.



XOXO
Zy

Paradox of our age.

So true!
'Steep profits but shallow relationships'
I guess there's an opportunity cost for everything in life.
Life's a choice, it just depends on which choice is dearer to you.

On a brighter note, my work ended early today!!! :)
Six days break and CNY celebrations! Woots!
My boss was kind enough to give everyone of us a CNY hamper!!
HAHAHA

Even my dad commented on the generosity of my company.
I've received FREE bak kwas, tangerines and now hamper. HAHA
Oh ya, my colleague treated me to lunch today too.
^^

Hope CNY will be a blast!!!
CNY goodies are simply irresistible, need to control my snacking and weight!!!


新年快乐！！！身体健康，万事如意！:)

CNY shopping!!

Went CNY shopping with Bokky and Hilda today!!!
HAHAHA
Nowhere special but our usual hanging place recently--- JP!
The thing about JP is, it's so FREAKING BIG that you will still get lost even if you've been there a hundred times, no kidding.

We went to eat ICHIBAN sushi for late lunch,
i had soba for the first time!!!
It was nice but i thought it was a bit tasteless.
Refreshing though.

I bought 2 pair of shoes.
Aurgh, having a shoe infatuation recently, bought quite a few pairs.
I love buying shoes and looking at them! They look so pretty but there's always only that few pairs that i will wear out.
-.-
What a waste! Should stop wasting my money on stuff that looks pretty but not useful.

Had dinner at Bakerzin.
I didn't eat though, because i was super full from my lunch.
HAHAHA
Just drank a cup of hot chocolate and shared a dessert with the girls.
There's something about hot chocolates that always make me warm and fuzzy inside.
:)
The weather's pretty cold this past 2 days because it has been raining non-stop.
Perfect for a cup of hot choco!!

Oh ya, met pamper coincidentally at Bakerzin.
She was having dinner with her family.
Haven't seen her for a long time, was super surprised when she called my name.
Made me think about the issue on friends...

Saw this quote on tumblr recently:

People change. They end up having nothing to say to each other, even if they were best friends the year before.

I find it so true, as if it spoke the words from my heart.
It's sad but the truth, how many of us have lost our friends??
And the only thing we can do, is hold on to the precious memories and footprints they left behind in our lives, wish them all the best and move on.
Afterall, life goes on, no matter what.

It was a simple day out but i love how the girls can always make me laugh.
LOL!
I'm learning to appreciate life that little bit more.
Cherish what you have now and don't ever take anyone for granted!!!
Even with what little friends i have, i feel blessed.
:)

I still have to work tmr,
Toodles!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! ^^

All good things

我想，世界上一切的东西都会过期，尤其是美好的东西。
永恒，也许只是两个被错摆在一起的词，因为它不可能实现。

我从未想过那么戏剧化的事会发生在我身上。
我喜欢看电视剧就是因为现实和戏剧生活有很大的差别，但当只在电视上看到的事情发生在
现实生活里，那又该怎么办？
看上去幸福美满的人生，背后又影藏了什么秘密？

一切的一切，都会化为乌有。
All good things, will come to an end.

Nightmares.

Omg, for the past 2 nights, i've been having dreams about Alevels.
And its so freaking real that i can't distinguish btw reality and dreams when i wake up.
-.-
I always wake up thinking whether i am taking A levels on that day.
And what's worse, i'm nt prepared for it at all.
Like i've forgotten all i've learnt.
OMG!!
And i'll wake up panicking.
:(

i wonder if its a premonition for whats to come.
0.O

Hopefully not.

1st post!

Hello!!! :)

I thought i shld update this space.
I found a job!!!! TATA!
:)

Have been working for the past 4 days.
Although the pay is extremely low, but i'm there for the experience.
Planning to quit after 1-2 mths.
Maybe finding a better job afterwhich.

Besides that, life have been pretty mundane.
Work is boring.
=x
But staying at home is boring too.

Anw, just before i start work, i went to watch 'The tourist' with Hilda.
Purely for eye-candies.
HAHA Johnny depp and the ever-sexy Angelina Jolie.
The movie itself was so-so, not the best both have done.
But! The scenery was wow, afterall, its filmed in Venice!

Ok, i shall be off to bed soon.
Hope 2011 is gonna be a good year!!! :)
Goodnight all.

Till then,
Zy