All things will pass

This will probably be the last post i'm writing in NZL.
I'm returning home this sunday, 27th October.
I had been so adamant on returning home, went to lengths for it.
But now that everything has been finalised, there's that tinge of sadness.
As much as i still long for home, i know this part of my life has came to an end.
And it's sad, because this exchange could have been better on so many accounts.

I've learnt, that people are mostly selfish.
Including me.
I've always had so much expectations from others, but i know unless the other person matters enough, no one will be willing to go the extra length for you.
Except for your family.
That's why, at the end of the day, i am glad i still have my family.
Or at least, my dad.

It's enough, at the end of the day, to have 1 person who cares.
That's not saying i am not going to accept others who come along.
But i just know there are limitations to how much one is willing to give to a passer-by.

So, thank you beautiful passerbys.
I have met so many this past 3 months.
Although there have been regrets, it has been enriching to know each and everyone.
Because there is always something worth learning from each and every experience.

New ZeaLand is beautiful, most of the people are beautiful too.
But, maybe it is just not the place for me.
So, thank you for the past 3 months.
Now, it's time for goodbye.
I will bring home only the fond memories and someday, i may come back. :)

Love,
Zhongyun

Growth

And so....
I've reached almost the end of my exchange.

The thing is, i've never felt so vulnerable and weak in my life before.
Except for the past few weeks.
I've learnt a lot from this experience.

1) Is to be dependent on no one but myself.
The truth is, people seldom care enough for another.
They are only there because you are of use to them - as a companion, or perhaps certain useful stuff.
Seldom, do people willingly help another.
It's sad, isn't it?
But, at the end of the day, there's no one for you but yourself.

2) How much my dad loves me
He worried so much for me...
How lucky i am to be born in this family.
I am blessed, really.

3) Not to judge so much.
Everybody has their worries and their problems...
I must try to be open-minded and receptive rather than judging easily.

I really don't want to go back to the old me.
The old immature, whiny and judgmental me.
So, take a step at a time.
Do one thing at a time.
Remind yourself daily yeah, not to judge, to be open-minded.
Not to be KPO, people do not need judgments but support.

Don't whine, just do.

Jiayou Zhongyun.
No matter what decision you make, just know i'll always be here for you.