Stay is a sensitive word.

"Stay is a sensitive word. We wear who stayed and who left in our skin forever." - Nayyirah Waheed

This past week has been interesting.
For one, I had loads of firsts this week.

1) First Course Opening Briefing

So, one of the courses under me requires an opening (& also graduation ceremony) for every class and I did my first opening this week.
If you know me, you will know I am absolutely terrified of public speaking.
BUT, I did it! YAY
hahaha
What made it even more nerve wrecking was my boss actually came.
He wasn't supposed to come because he has a course to attend but he actually came.
Hahaha I am grateful but it made things so much more nerve wrecking.

OH WELL.
I think there are still loads of areas i can improve on but I am glad I did it.
YAY 3 cheers for taking a step forward in the ' Fake it till you make it'!

2) First Art Jamming @ Arteastiq

It's not the first time I went arteastiq, I went before with Pam & Chi for the disastrous intended birthday dinner for Val that didn't work out.
But anw! We didn't draw that time but what is special about Arteastiq is they provide art jamming sessions where you can unleash your inner piccassos HAHA
But each session is pretty ex - $48 per pax for 3 hours.
I got to try it for free though - courtesy to CDG OE day!
hehe

20 of us from CDG went down and we were allocated into 4 person/grp.
Tasked to draw one of HDB's shared values and our group drew Excellence!
I must say, I was impressed with the artistic talents of everyone haha
Didn't expect so many people that can draw so well.

 Our group with our end product!
It's actually a lot of small colourful stars leading to the big star.
HAHAHA it was actually super fun! And i laughed a lot with melissa.
Because I realised I can't draw stars zzz
Stars may look simple but are actually quite diff to draw them well.
I was literally writing 大by the end LOL

And I realised drawing is very therapeutic.
Something about colours and the brush on canvas just smoothes out your worries.
haha but it's quite an expensive hobby I must say.

3) First Meditation session with Mum and Dad

We are a family that bonds through meditation HAHAHA
So one day, mum suddenly came to me and asked me if i am interested in this meditation course she and my dad signed up for.
I went to check it out and since it is at Bishan, 2 stops away from my workplace and mum can come pick us up, i decided to sign up.
On Mon this week, we went for our first session after work.
It was a MASSIVE group meditation, like at least 100 pple in the huge hall.
The monk leading was pretty funny hahahaha
In the way he says things so matter of factly.
Although I did feel it wasn't that effective, esp for a first timer like me.
I couldn't shut my brain off and be in the moment.
But! Still an experience which I hope i will get better in.
5 more sessions to go!

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Always knew this day will come, but knowing doesn't mean you are prepared for it.
I knew the lunch girls, most of them were thinking of leaving, seeking greener pastures.
Afterall, some of them have alr been here for 2-3 years, it's time.
Still, I am sad to see this and hear them go.
Part of me wishes things can stay this way forever, but I guess, sometimes forever is just 1 second.

Really, really glad I met this bunch of lovely colleagues.
And I realised, no matter how many times I say goodbye, I will never get used to it.
Many times, instead of goodbye, I want to say 'stay'.
Stay, in my life.
But, stay, is a sensitive word.
And, love is an act of letting go.