HongKong'16 - Best Trip Ever

Woo~

Have been back from HK for about a week but I am still reeling from the trip.

It is the best trip ever till now, even better than NZL.

Maybe because I went with no expectations, was totally YOLO with no itinerary. 

Heck, I packed on the morning itself before heading to the airport. 

And I was sick zzzz

BUT, it turned out to be the best trip ever.

And I did so many things I never thought I would. 

Biggest accomplishment would be climbing to the peak of 钓鱼嗡 (High Junk Peak).

Just look at the view!

It was breathe taking and worth my 3 falls going downhill HAHAHA

The sun was crazy though and we climbed up when it was 32 degrees.

I felt so so so free and liberated when I was at the top. 

Good thing was there was a slight breeze ~ 

And the weather, was perfect. 

I was so scared it would rain throughout my trip (like how it did the previous time I went HK last yr), because it rained on my 2nd day and I went Disneyland in the rain zzzz.

BUT! The weather was perfect for the rest of my trip. :)

I felt so happy & at ease throughout the trip, all thanks to the non-local Hongkonger - HD. 

On the first night when he picked me up at the airport, he got lost LOL.

As expected HAHAHA 

A 50 mins ride from the airport to Kowloon Island became 1.5 hrs because he went to HK Island instead and took a LONGGG detour.

But, it created memories hahahhaa.

Thanks to HD, I got to meet Choco niece and Maddy - finally!

Has been seeing pics of choco niece all the time and they are soooo cute. 

Went to the peak and Stanley beach with his family before having dinner with them. 

Love his family so much because they are so hospitable and treats me like one of their own. 

Made a new friend too!

Baby James hahahah (because he chose to drink 7/11 beverage instead of alcohol when we went to the pier)

He not only used his staff pass to give us discount (50% off!) at disneyland but also accompanied me in my last 2 days. 

I am so grateful to him and he is really really friendly too. 

The oddest meal must be the super ex $200 (yes omg) cafe dinner I had with HD, his gf Monica, James and Monica's ex-colleague. 

It was kinda awkward? Coz they were speaking in Canto and first time HD introducing Monica as his GF hahaha.

But they were all really hospitable.

And I am so so happy for HD, because Monica seemed like a really understanding girl - which makes a good GF.

A compassionate guy like HD, deserves a good girl like Monica :)

And we went to this music gig which I really really enjoyed. 

First time having free flow red wine and the music was so good - jazz and indie style.

The atmosphere was really chillax too. 

Spent all 5 days with HD.

And I am really really grateful to him for taking care of me throughout the 5 days. 

To be honest, I wasn't looking forward to the trip at all.

I was sick - physically and emotionally.

But, so glad I went ahead.

It became a healing trip and I have never felt so re-charged ever. 

Perhaps being able to reach the peak of the mountain changed something in me. 

I never thought I would be able to do it - we were literally climbing rocks to reach the peak. 

But I DID IT. 

Like what they say, 

' Life begins at the end of your comfort zone'

I guess it's true. 

It really does. 

The upper half of 2016 was a mess - filled with drama and unhappiness. 

But, when I left it all in July, I made a pact that the lower half will be good. 

And it is. 

I have moved on. 

Can't wait for what the rest of 2016 have in store for me. 

^^

Happy pills

Was so tempted to take time off this afternoon coz my headache was killing me.
And now I'm sick... what a bad time to be sick coz I am flying tmr zzz

BUT, still made the effort to travel down to beauty world for dinner with val and pam.
They are my happy pills, I was immediately elated when I saw them omg.
Like my whole day of fatigue just went away, and all my unhappiness throughout the day just went away.
How would I live without them sigh.

Val uttered the truth - I wasn't looking for a friend, I was looking for a companion.
That's why my expectations are so high...
It is what it is，I guess.
李大仁是不存在的。
大多数男生，一旦你不感兴趣，就会对你冷淡，最后，连朋友都不是。

Onwards, to better life.
Will be seeing HD tmr, literally hahaha.

Till I'm back~

自己的一厢情愿

当一个男人对你感兴趣，一定会奋不顾身的找你，和你说话，追你。
但，当你要卑微的倒追，就代表兴趣没了。

有可能是我想太多吧。
我也太天真，感情的世界我不知道怎么navigate.

但，我决定了。
从今天起，我不会再卑微的倒追了。
今天，我的所做所谓，也许注定了结局吧。

我要找一个对我好的人，会一直在的人。

礼拜五就要飞去香港了。
去散散心吧~

加油，钟韵。
要相信自己，会找到你的幸福的。^^

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5.57am

最后，还是失眠了。
我觉得好累，这一年，太多事情发生了。
也许最大的过错，就是我总是用自己的理解看世界。
换来的，总是自己的一厢情愿。

很多时候，事实摆在你的眼前。
但，就是一直奢望，一直抱有希望。
换来的，只是失望。

时间，会冲淡一切。
这一点我比任何人都明白。
只是，我还要有多少次的一厢情愿?
多少次的失望?

想放过自己，因为真的太累了。
想找一个对自己好的人，真的好难。

你在哪里?

Picnic @ Botanic Gardens!

Had a great time with Beth and Maria at Botanic Gardens today!

Went there for a mini picnic.

I brought sandwiches, Maria brought grapes (that was super super sweet and nice and she was so proud about LOL) and Beth provided the mat and chips and sausages. 

Botanic Gardens was so misty, it looked super surreal. 

Almost like 'Secret Garden' hahaha

And I am still amazed at S7's camera quality, it is super good!

Went Island Creamery for some post-meal desserts!

We asked for 2 scoops but the amount the generous scooper dished was crazy, way more than 2 scoops.

Thanks for making our money worth! Hahaha

Had a lot of meaningful conversations with Beth & Maria.

It was indeed quality time well-spent and I really enjoyed knowing more about people rather than superficial small talks. 

Shared my honest sentiments on making friends as an adult and how people are so guarded now. 

Sometimes, I wonder if my thinking of treating colleagues as friends is being too naive, because I sincerely believe we can make friends as adults. 

But, most people have already formed their inner circle of friends. 

Those who are attached perhaps are even more closed to meeting new people and making new friends. 

And I don't blame them, it is hard, freaking hard. 

This year, has been the most eventful year for me in terms of relationships till now. 

Been in a lot of one-sided friendships and it made me realise being friends as an adult, the relationship has to be organic, yet not passive. 

There must be one person that shows their vulnerability first and see if the other person reciprocates. 

I guess, the biggest take-away for me this year, is learning how to manage expectations, in every areas of my life. 

There are so many areas of life that are beyond my control now, esp when it comes to relationships.

The only things I can control, are my thoughts and my actions. 

Recently, there has been one person weighing on my mind:

Captain.

Not sure if it was just me, but during OBS I felt an odd sense of chemistry with him. 

Perhaps it was because he is really easy to get along with and he is pretty popular. 

Over the months, somehow unexpectedly, we started a friendship - mainly through going out to movies and eating dinner together etc. 

And, he was the first person who knew about the debacle with D in April.

Then, I cried over the phone to him. 

It was the first time I was so vulnerable in a long time, I can still clearly rmb my tears then. 

And maybe because he was very nice to me, somehow I started having expectations towards him: perhaps there's smth more? 

But, clearly there is nth more. haha

Captain had drawn the lines with me - we are friends and he is friends with everyone. 

Only... I'm not even sure how long this friendship will last. 

Because we don't have a clique, and our lives are too far apart. 

Together with the end of D's debacle, I feel that his part in my life is drawing to an end soon. 

A bit bittersweet, because I really like him as a person. 

Although captain looks beng-ish, I feel that he is a good person and a really loyal one too. 

And I learnt a lot from him, he may be one of the good things that happened to me for 2016. 

I hope sincerely that he will find his happiness soon. 

Thank you Captain. 

And now, I must let go.

Hai Di Lao!

First Hai Di Lao experience today!
Went to Hai Di Lao post-work with the OBS peeps - Alvin, Shi Han and Weiming.
Was kinda worried at first because... wm is not part of CDG and was scared the frequency won't be there and things will be awkward.
But i guess, the worry was unfounded as dinner turned out well! haha
Rather than him, I felt kinda out of place lol.
And, it was sort of the first time I went out with 3 guys omg.

Hai Di Lao was super ex but a good experience nevertheless.
Don't think I will eat it soon though because the price is super ex.
Atas steamboat basically.
And the queue is insane!
Called all 3 branches of HDL for queue ticket, eventually managed to convince Alvin to drive down to IMM.

The whole dinner went quite well - somehow became a counselling session lol.
Or rather, direction seeking session.
Told Alvin about my contract renewal situation and he was kinda taken aback because it never occurred to him that this would happen.

Actually, I alr kinda have my ans.
Will be renewing till I find a job.
I feel really glad to hang out with them because I realise I really learn a lot from them.
Alvin is gonna be a dad soon, bro is in a complicated relationship that has become official and weiming... not kinda sure what's his status LOL.
But, all of them taught me a lot.
Alvin was saying in life, people come and go.
I know this as a fact, but acceptance is still hard.

Wm also taught me a lot - about relationships, friendships and pokemon go LOL.
Glad to meet them, even if is for the time being.
Maybe the definition of friends is really not how long it is, but rather the impact they made during the period they were in your life.