Listening to Disney soundtrack now. HAHAHA
So random but I love Disney music, it always makes me super hopeful and happy. ^^
I felt like I haven't updated on my life recently.
As always, it feels like so much things are happening at the same time, yet things are moving really slowly...
Is it a mid-20s thing? =/
Work-wise, I am really busy going on course this few weeks - sitting in for my own courses, service 101 etc.
It has been pretty fun!
Especially the mouse-trap game we played today haha.
And I realise I am really a damn anxious/kan chiong person.
When I can't communicate my ideas, I'll rather do it myself LOL.
Which was what happened when i literally grabbed my blindfolded buddy A's hands and was trying to help him build the model hahaha
Hmm... good point to note about myself, and something I should improve on.
Calmness in all situations is always good *point to note*
Private-life wise...
I am currently volunteering with 50cube SG and helping out with event planning for the Big Family Day Out Carnival to be held on Nov 19.
And... I think I really stepped out of my comfort zone by actively sourcing for vendors and even approaching vendors at SCAPEmarketplace to get their namecards to contact them.
Good Job Zy *pats myself*
But, I think I over-estimated myself...
Because I feel quite over-exerted with the commitments I'm making.
Hence, I told Elissa directly that I would require some more assistance.
And without being apologetic about it - although I felt quite bad, like I couldn't handle my position.
But I think being honest about it and asking for help is actually being more responsible in a way.
As for other aspects, I have toned down a lot.
Especially towards relationships in general - organic is the way to go.
And, when relationships have fulfilled their purpose, it's better to just let it go.
I feel strangely at peace with my life right now.
Was talking about self-esteem with Val.
And I realise it is a continuous process - building up self-esteem that is.
When I reached the peak of High Junk Peak, my self-esteem went so high up, I was reeling from it even for the week after.
But, recently because of work and maybe just the mundaneness of life, I feel my self-esteem is going down again.
And my self-defeating thoughts are always there.
Good thing to note is at least I am aware of them now, and I will work on eventually eliminating all this self-defeating thoughts.
I will not engage in self-sabotage anymore haha.
That is a promise to myself.
Ohhh... and I have been going to dentists so often, All Smiles Dental is like my 2nd home.
Went today again coz the gum on my right has been so painful.
I thought it was like some unclean stuff again but turns out, I burnt my gum zzzz
No wonder so pain.
Hoping it will get well soon!
Health hasn't been the best recently.
Hoping will get well before my Japan tripppp.
Yes yes, going Japan in about 2 weeks time - next Sat.
And this time is gonna be a longgg trip.
Can't wait.
Till then~
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