And so I realised...

I used to think continuous giving to others is being kind and good.
It is.
However, if it is at the expense of yourself, it is being selfish - to both yourself and others.
Because, your giving won't be unconditional but harbouring on getting something back because your own needs are not fulfilled.
And people can sense that and people will leave.

I used to think - why can't I keep friends.
And then I realised, it is because I don't value myself, that's why others don't value me.
I lack respect, to myself.

You can only give more, when you are whole yourself. 

Today, I can proudly say: 'I love myself.'
With all my imperfections.
What's wrong with being loud and chatty and straightforward?
If you can't appreciate me, that is your problem, not mine.

As for the people who left, it just shows there is no place in my life for you.
Thank you, for once leaving footprints.
But now, that's all there is.

I need to grow, as a person.

So today, I am whole.
I am complete by myself.

My self-worth does not need external validation, I just need my own validation.