Over whether I should get him back or not.
Only to realise, honestly there is no need to.
He has already moved on, and the issues will still be there.
I should not want him back just because of a fear of being alone for life.
As much as I do agree that is a very scary thought and I will work on it for a long time, but this break up on hindsight will be a blessing in disguise if I grow from it.
It's been 2 months, and I've been crying for 5 months (since Nov last year actually).
Life is not a comparison, if this is how I process my emotions, so be it.
I need to stop blaming myself for still pinning over him.
So, today 15 March. I've decided to move on.
And by moving on, means no more texts, no more meet ups. Closing this chapter of my life.
For the past 2 months, we've still been texting and meeting up once in awhile.
Perhaps he can be friends, but for me, it just makes the heart ache worst thereafter.
Is better if it's out of sight, out of mind.
And to whoever I meet in the future when I'm ready, I know you will not be the same as him and it will be another different kind of rs.
To be prepared to meet you, I will move on and be in a better state of mind and open hearted to give love another shot.
Honestly I have no idea when that day will arrive haha
Coz I'm still crying over him.
But moving on, is just a decision. This will be a test of my mental discipline, self resilience and growth.
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