Blank Spaces

Haven't posted in close to 2 months.
So much happenings, yet, many are lost in the blank spaces.

The biggest chunk of 2017 was spent with Alvin and his friends.
Through them, I learnt so much.  Although it was mostly fun & games, but I feel I have developed so much as a person.

I've lost so much (job, countless guys + friends).
But I feel I've gained so much more too... because I have grown as a person.

Growing up is so tough and a lonely journey.
I am going to miss everyone here - Kit, Clement, ShuXiong, Kitty Jie, Widya, Rachel etc
And most of all, Lao Ban Alvin.
I never knew we would become so close and he would play such a huge role in my growth.
When Anthony told me they will not be renewing or confirming me, lao ban told me - 你在HDB没遇到贵人。
Little does he know, he is my 贵人in life.

And... special mention to Bryan, Mr Blue.
Thank you, for everything.
Even though things did not end off well, I will remember you and the fun times.
Because of the many firsts, you played a huge part of my 2017 too.

Life, is full of surprises.
People I thought will stay forever, are no longer part of my journey.
I guess, that's what growing up is all about.

Saying hellos... and then goodbyes.

时不时

时不时的会想起你
也许，真的是得不到的，才最珍贵
因为，它永远保持了‘可能’的想象力

拥有，就是失去的开始。


什么时候我才有勇气去拥有呢？

Restaurant week 2017!

So... It's Restaurant Week again! 

And I went to try out FYR Cycene Ond Drinc with Hui Juan.

Haha how time flies, one year ago I went with her to Restaurant Week too...

Had their Pork Belly for appetiser! 

There was like this Maggi Mee crunch inside, and I was supposed to eat it crushed with the pork belly.

It's quite nice, but I thought it wasn't as good as an appetiser coz it didn't really 开胃？

Had their snapper fillet and its ginormous. 

Below the fillet there's still cous cous! 

It tastes really good with the tangy sauce and the fish meat was tender.

Recommended! :)

Mille-freue with coconut ice cream! 

Dessert is always my fav part of the meal hehe

Photo with 大坏蛋!

We went Bugis to walk walk after the meal and she bought Tuk Tuk Cha

And then! She had bad cramps and we had to go home...

Why is it every time we go out something crops up!! zzzzz

But is ok la, I had a good chat with her over lunch. 

Thankful for her :) and that we still keep in contact even though we are no longer in the same organisation.

Boomerang with my FOCC members! 

Glad the Appreciation Tea Ceremony was a success

And with it, comes the end of another chapter. 

好男人

Went out with HuiMin and her bf and her friends on Sat...
We went to sing K and it was a kinda weird combination haha
And had dinner after... was quite fun, it was the first time i spent time with HuiMin outside of work.
In a way, our friendship also started quite oddly.
I can't rmb when we became friends to be honest lol
I only rmb we had a convo during FOCC outing in Dec last yr, when she was a volunteer and she mentioned she wanna intro some friends to me LOL
Nevertheless, I'm glad I made a friend in HuiMin :)
It's really rare, ever since HJ left, I've been pretty miserable...
It's kinda rare to find someone you can click, and we have a lot of similarities.
She's a Gemini baby too, 2 days after me! But she is 2 years older.

The most memorable thing was when we were at Victoria Secret
And when HM and S were away buying bombshell, her bf and I were waiting outside
He asked me what's my plans for the future? Coz I said I am saving up
I asked him back, and without even skipping a beat, he said:

To start a family with Huimin.

At that moment, I was surprised for a second. To hear someone say something so definitely, without any tinge of hesitation. That's true commitment.
I guess... I've seen too many bad guys? That to meet a good guy actually takes me by surprise.
But there are, HD is one. HM's bf is one.
And he is not just nice to HM but to her friends as well. Throughout the whole afternoon/night, he was concerned over whether I am ok/feel awkward? And makes convo.
Haha kindness and genuineness, that's the most impt trait I am looking for.
I guess, I'll just have to keep believing.

Really happy for HuiMin. :)
钟韵认可哦 哈哈哈


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不知什么时候，我才能完全放下。
一場靈魂相知相識卻終難成同行伴侶的愛戀，永遠是最淒美的情歌故事。

Turning into a Work Zombie

My mum called me at work today, which is kinda rare (we message but seldom call)

And the reason she called was to ask me if i buying cake.

Throughout the whole conversation, I was thinking: 'Why is she calling about cakes?'

It only dawned on me after I was about to make my way to Orchard...

Today is my mum's birthday. 

The convo below with HuiMin sums up my entire dialogue within:

HAHAHA

started using telegram recently and the stickers are so cuteeee~

Bought Rive Gauche Strawberry Shortcake back to celebrate my mum birthday.

Can't believe she is 51, as I age, sometimes I forget my parents are aging too.

Life hasn't been the best to me recently

I feel like my anxieties are back, mostly due to work stress

which affects my physical health. 

I feel like a pampered little girl who can't take stress at times, when I am really trying my best to adapt

Maybe I shld just admit it, I'm not happy here and stop being so afraid to take a leap of faith

Perhaps the best thing this month, is meeting Pang. 

The first 3 months of 2017 has been a whirlwind, with people entering and leaving my life within days/weeks. 

JJ, David, YL, Mr Blue.

Through it all, I think Pang maybe the best thing to have happened so far.

It's too early to say, i'm really just letting things be. 

But for now, I'm thankful. 

Thank you. 

Surprises in Life

I think, life really tends to unfold in mysterious ways.
What I thought will happen, tend to not go the way it did.

Had my V day date with YL.
But the night ended not with me and him, but me, Alvin & Mr Blue at Chupitos Shots Bar.
Because I felt so suffocated, by our conversation and even his presence.
To be honest, I felt quite guilty about it. Because it was very disrespectful and I said a lie.

A week later, I texted him, telling him I will try.
But, we quarrelled again.
Somehow, I just couldn't build an emotional connection with him.
I really tried, but I think I really wasn't attracted to him.

So, 2 nights ago I just told him the truth.
And the truth really set everyone free.
This time, for the better.

So, I'm back to square one.
Maybe, it's for the better for now.

But, why are you so afraid of getting hurt, Zy?

Why?

Resident Evil and Hacksaw Ridge

Went to watch 2 movies this weekend!

First up is 'Resident Evil: The Final Chapter'!

Still remember the first RE movie I watched was in Sec 3 and Val & I actually sneaked into the cinemas to catch it coz we were not 16 yet.

In a blink of eye, 10 years have passed and the last RE movie is out.

Val betrayed me and watched with her bf zzz

So I jio-ed Li Ping out for the movie! 

My zombie buddy - 2nd zombie movie I've watched with her.

First was 'Train to Busan' last yr.

Eating Mcflurry and watching movie is really 小幸福 :)

Film verdict: watch it for the action, but don't expect much from the storyline.

2nd Movie!

Watched 'Hacksaw Ridge' with You Liang and his army kakis - yi da and yong zheng.

It was kinda spontaneous, I've mentioned I wanna watch the movie and he just jio-ed me to watch with his friends last night. 

The movie was bloody, as bloody as RE.

But the storyline was so touching and inspirational.

It's based on a real life story of Desmond Doss who saved 75 lives in the Battle of Okinawa without any combat weapons because of his strong convictions against killing. 

His goal was to save and not kill lives, an ironic against the backdrop of war.

But, he did it. 

Way more than any combat man could. 

Film Verdict: Highly Recommended!

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More than the movies, I feel my life has been equally drama recently. 

You Liang has been particularly attentive recently - talking to me, jio-ing me out and he just asked me out for dinner on V day. 

I... am scared to be honest. 

With him, we have been friends for 6 years and he actually confessed 2x before. 

Val just ask me: who the hell would like the same girl for 6 years??

lol, yeap, i wonder who too. 

So, decided to give him and most importantly, myself a chance. 

The past 1 year and this 1 month, I've interacted with so many guys, way more than I can count. 

But, I've noticed the difference. 

Those who really care, they prove through actions. 

And, I feel it - the respect and positive emotional bids. 

I just need to make a decision and stick to it. 

That's all.