Burning Hot

So, I'm sick zzzzzz.
Haven't had fever in a long time, I've forgotten how sucky it feels.
But yesterday, at mum's dance performance at VCH, I developed a fever, must be the accumulation of my sickness throughout the past 2 weeks.
Had a terrible night, woke up three times in total to change ice packet and also my cloth on my forehead.
Aurgh, and then slept the whole day away today too.
Luckily, I'm feeling much much better now, hopefully I will get better soon, before wed!

I've decided on HDB and have officially rejected CPF last week.
Gonna go sign the appointment letter and meet the Deputy Director thereafter this thurs.
Was genuinely surprised when the DD offered to meet me again last week, my oh my.
This also means I'm going to start work real soon and as much as I'm excited, the thought of officially starting work so soon is quite scary too. =/
Oh well, shldn't overthink and just have faith in myself. Jiayou zhongyun!

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Went to NMS again this past Saturday for Grace's team's dry run.
Was surprisingly quite fun and we had Maki-san for lunch!
Haha was just telling Heng the night before that I had craving for Maki-san and then I got to eat it the next day, yay!
Going to go for their official run this coming Wed too and I am pretty excited about it hahaha.

After their test run, I went Vivo to wait for Val, Pam and Chi coz we were gonna go USS halloween night.
Finally! After 2 years.
But, I feel that this year's wasn't as scary lol.
Or is it because the novelty wore off?
And, we only managed to go 2 haunted houses coz the queues were FREAKING long. zzzzzz
Is ultimate sian and felt like a waste of money.

We reached home at 2 am and I was dead tired, slept at 3 am.
Maybe it is because of a culmination of all these lack of sleep and also the haze that made me fell sick.
Haha everything also blame the haze.

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Why am I still waiting?
On the surface and even rhetorically, I keep saying I'm getting over you.
But somehow, I still crave attention from you.
Maybe, it is because I don't feel security in this friendship and I am really expecting too much.
If we eventually drift apart, so be it.
Isn't that the case? We were never that close to begin with anyway, and our lives are going to diverge very very fast.

So, curb your expectations, zhong, and learn to let go.

Let go.