Brain or Heart?

I was a girl who used to follow my heart. 

But somewhere along the way, I realised that following the heart creates more suffering. 

Following the heart is not for everyone, it is for those who are passionate enough, who are strong enough to carry through what their heart calls for. For those souls who are courageous enough. 

Hence, I took the 'easier' path. 

I decided to follow my brain. 

I figured, being rational is always a plus in life - you make the decision that is best suited for you based on pros and cons. 

But, I realised. 

There is an opportunity cost too. 

Because the brain will never make you choose something or someone that causes hurt, the brain will always rationalise your choices based on the one with the most benefit to you. 

But, life is not so black and white. 

In any relationships, there is bond to be suffering and hurt on top of the sweetness and support. 

Following the brain, will then make you lose out. On possibilities and opportunities that are rare encounters once in a lifetime. 

How many times do you actually fall in love in a lifetime? 

How many times do 2 person, fall in love at the right time and moment? 

That leap of faith, requires the heart to roar and take control. 

So now, I am just a confused girl. 

Caught in the brain-heart tag of war. 

Or rather, trying to find a balance between the two. 

Life's so hard, relationships are so complicated. 

Today, I hate growing up.