Youth Corps

Went for my first Teh Tarik session at the Red Box ytd after work.
Was my first youth corps event since i joined as a member last year.
And, it turned out to be quite fun!
The people there are really really friendly and young hahaa
I was like one of the oldest there.
But their friendliness, just makes me feel very welcomed.

Had an interesting and engaging session where Joe Tan, Founder of Love Action Project shared his experiences and his view on friendship.
Something he shared makes me re-evaluate my view of friendship.
The past year, ever since leaving uni, hasn't been the easiest for me in terms of relationships.
I've met so many new people, yet at the same time so many left as life gets in the way.
But, there are so many types of friendship - those that grow with you, those that are one-time friends etc.
Even if they don't stay, it doesn't mean any of them were not impt to you at that moment in time.
What is more significant, is the experience and impact they brought and taught you.
And I thought about it, the reason why I am always disappointed in people.
Instead of having expectations and questioning others, perhaps I should reflect more on myself.
To have great friends, I need to be a good friend to others first.

After which we had a mini get to know each other session.
Haha had so much fun talking to strangers coz everyone is so friendly.
Stayed behind for awhile to chit chat more with some of them, really glad to met them - Zhi Lei, Chen Hui and Afzal.
Hoping to see them again soon!

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Cried at work on Thurs.
Got to know some bad news - HJ is leaving.
Didn't know I would get so affected by her departure but I did.
Sigh, sometimes I get quite annoyed by my own sentimentality, but I am learning not to apologise for how I feel.
Just had to let it out, and then I'll be fine.

Que Sera Sera - What's meant to be, will be.

Melaka 2D1N!

Woots! Spent the past weekend in Melaka with the girls.

And, it was so fun!

The last time I went overseas with them was agessss back.

But, the trip was way too short. Felt like most of the time was spent on the bus to and fro. 

On the first day we even had jam! Left SG at 9.30am but we only reached Melaka ard 2.30pm. 

Checked into our hotel - Estadia and i really recommend it!

The bed was like SUPER big omg. 

We chose a King size bed and the 3 of us slept on it, without touching each other even though we tossed and turned. 

Imagine how big the bed must be LOL. 

The hotel corridor is super longggg.

Only photo of the whole room, although our things were like strewn everywhere hahaha

Look at how big the bed is!

So, after we checked in, we went out to eat something because we haven't had lunch.

In the end... we winded up at Tim Ho Wan LOL.

But, it's so much cheaper in Malaysia coz of the exchange rate. 

After THW, we walked around before taking a cab to eat the highlight - Lok Lok!

This Capitol Satay is seriously so good!

When we reached there around 4.30pm, there was already a significant queue.

Luckily we went there quite early because the queue was even longer after we finished.

I've never had Lok-Lok before so this was an experience.

It was super good. I love the peanut sauce, together with the Tofu skin coz the skin will soak up the sauce. Yum!

After which, we walked to Jonker street for... more food! haha 

Found this place with super good lighting

And we just sat there and took pictures hahaha

Love them <3 p="">

LOL! Totally candid picture hahaha

Look at Pam's expression 

The sky was super nice.

                                             

We tried the Korean nitrogen dessert where you blow out 'frozen nitrogen' when you eat it.

Quite fun but it wasn't that nice. Shld try just for the novelty.

Walked along Jonker Street for the whole night and had loads of street food before going back hotel. 

Actually the whole highlight of the trip was our conversation on the bed. 

The 3 of us were like talking about anything and everything - the convo just flowed from one to the other. 

At one point, the 3 of us were laughing coz we were talking about... highlighters LOL

And it was a super serious discussion coz we were like saying which colour is the nicest hahaha.

Omg, at that point in time, I felt so at peace and so happy. 

It is something I haven't felt for so long - peaceful happiness. 

I miss this connection, this communication, this non-serious topics.

This sense of calm knowing I can trust someone and they understand me completely. 

It is just so hard to make new close friends now. 

Makes me cherish them even more.

Next morning.... We set alarm to wake up at 6.50am to go to the.. gym. LOL

So healthy hahaha we brought our gym stuff to Melaka!

But, we failed LOL.

In the end we woke up at 8.30am, and that Val had to open the curtains fully.

Pam and I had the exact same reaction to the full blast of sunlight HAHAHA

We still went to gym for around an hour and had the whole gym to ourselves!

Before heading down for hotel breakfast and out for shopping.

The trip was wayyy too short. 

Can't wait for the next trip with them. 

When I reached back Sg, had serious bout of post-trip blues haha.

And today, OT-ed till 7.30pm before I left the office.

I have soooo much things on my plate now.

Which is a good thing I guess, I like being busy. 

 

Ending off with fav photo of me that Pam took.

So far, 2016 has been a roller coaster ride with so many firsts for me. 

Life, has been on the fast lane but slowly, things seem to be getting back on track.

I'm learning, to see the silver lining in any situation.

Really glad for the experiences I had, no matter good or bad. 

Almost the end of July now, feeling excited for whatever is going to come my way! :)

NDP 2016! Happy 51st Singapore ^^

Fun & fulfilling day today! 

Went to CCH for housekeeping in the afternoon as I am the OIC for the month. 

Thereafter, I went to meet Liping for NDP 2016 preview. 

Today is actually the pri 5 kids preview and omg, there were so many 11 year olds forming a sea of red and white. 

And they were so.... energetic LOL. For the lack of a better term. 

I can't remember if I was that energetic when i was 11..... so long ago. 

老了老了 :(

Our seat was so good, like right smack in the middle, opposite where the men in white will sit on the actual day. 

And yes! Both of us pasted the 51 tattoo on our faces. ^^

We even wore it all the way home HAHAHA

Took this pic as the fan packaging said to take a selfie and # smth... to stand a chance to win a prize. 

And they gave out this cool laser light wrist band that shines different lights according to the different acts. 

Surprisingly, the parade was shorter than I expected. 

Whole show ended around 8.15pm. 

Really liked how inclusive the parade this year is, they included one whole act for the disabled and the audience are encouraged to participate by learning the sign language for 'Count on Me, Singapore'.

I think it is really sweet and a step forward in the movement towards a more inclusive society. 

Went with Liping to JP for late dinner... in the end it turned out to be she eating and me looking at her eat hahaha.

And I sort of shared a super condensed version of recent happenings. 

And I realised, I no longer carry any emotions lol.

Rather, the part I am more concerned with is the future and how to balance myself. 

The ordeal, opened my eyes to how emotionally manipulative people can be and it scares me. 

Liping said, I just need to regain faith in guys, haha coz I have no problem on the gfs side. 

Working on myself right now - to be a better me. 

Meeting Pam to go gym tmr morning! 

Haha can't believe I self-invited LOL. 

1st HRD bonding day!

Had our 1st ever inaugural HDB HRD bonding day today. 

Early in the morning, the bosses were serving us Nasi Lemak lol.

Luckily I made an effort to leave house early, coz today cannot afford to be late. =x

At ard 3.30pm, we headed down to ACM for a walking monuments tour ard the CBD area.

Before going for dinner at Marina Square Manhatten Fish Market. 

One of the 1st pics with almost all of my lunch girls in!

Presenting... HDB's young HRMS. ^^

Although we were kinda 'forced' to go (obligation thingy)

But, was still glad to spend some time with the girls. 

It's quite hard and rare, to be honest haha

But, instead of it being an HRD bonding, it seemed to be more of our clique bonding LOL

With Delphine being an addition at our dinner table. 

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Mood Today: Overwhelming sense of loneliness

Solution: Facing loneliness upfront & learning to be complete by myself

Time to sleep! Tmr will be a better day and you will be your positive self soon. 

Slowly, slowly. 

One of those days

Went to celebrate pammy's 24th birthday @ Holland V d'good cafe today!
Was my first time there and we had brunch.
The food was good! But really ex... makes me wonder how those frequent brunch and café hoppers afford them. :/

Ordered the above portobello mushroom eggs benedict and it was so good!
But a bit too little for me hahahaha
Luckily we ordered another waffle to share.
And as always, had a good girls talk session with val and pam.
Honestly can't imagine how I will survive without them.
<3 p="">
Met wm for movie after.
Lol today I learnt that we can actually change movies with an additional charge.
So, we changed from Tarzan to 寒战 2.
I didn't even watch the first one so it became quite complex for me.
but overall, it wasn't too bad. Aaron Kwok looks way too good for a 50 plus years.

I realised, building your self worth is really a continuous process.
Some days, I feel like I am super confident about myself and my personality.
But on others, like today, I feel deeply insecure & unloved.
There are a lot of negative traits in me, which I acknowledge and I am trying to balance - like they say, realisation is the first step to change.

Goal for lower half of the year - to learn to love myself for who I am - the bad traits and the good traits & learning to balance them out.
And... to fill that void in me. I've learnt my lesson, a relationship will not fill this void.
If anything, it will just attract the wrong type of attention.

One good thing tonight, wm said I am a super positive person.
Lol that's one of the nicest thing he said coz he always say I naive & stupid. :/

This week, will be a good week. :)

Ukulele lessons!

So, recently I started going for Ukulele lessons @ Replugged Bugis.
Almost missed out on the classes due to my ortho appts.
As the uku lessons are on every Tues nights and my ortho only visits my branch on Tues. :(
So, I missed the 1st Uku lesson to have a discussion with Dr Seow and she is so so nice!
She agreed to come to my branch on Wed for 2 months just for me. <3 p="">
Thus! I could start attending lessons. :)
It's pretty fun so far but reminded me of why i didn't pick up guitar.
It is so painful LOLLLL
Especially with chord pressing and my sweaty palm doesn't help.
Val tried teaching me guitar before but i just gave up HAHAHAA
Seriously, I think piano is the easiest instrument to learn.
It's like no matter how you press, it will sound nice.... kinda? LOL

I realised I miss music and learning instruments.
I haven't been learning any new instruments since JC days.
YAY to smth new. :)

After the class, I actually ate alone at Bugis and... it surprisingly felt good.
The counter staff asked me if i wanted a student meal and i thought: why not? LOL
And pulled out my NUS matric card HAHAHHAA
I really enjoyed the meal alone and at that instant, I realised:

It has always been about the connection. 

If anything, I felt more lonely last Fri than ytd. 

Have been reading this personal excellence blog on relationships and I find what she says so relatable. 

I am kinda tired right now. 

You attract they type of people you are and what vibe you send out. 

Law of attraction, I used to not believe in it, but now I kinda do. 

So, for the rest of 2016, I am going to work on myself and be the best self I can be so that I send out the right vibes. 

For now, I am very grateful to the people that are around me and standing by me. 

Thank you. 

You all, make the world a less lonely place. :)

我的一万种可能

HEHEHE
Just ended an hour call with dear Mings.
And look at our group chat LOLLL
Jason NEI. HAHHAHA omg
So funny!

SO SO thankful for having these people in my life.

:)

Remembered one of my fav quote from one of my fav drama 放羊的星星：
在你身边，我只有痛苦。
但离开你，我就有一万种可能。

我，要去寻找我的一万种可能。

The lower half of the year, will be good! :)

11.46pm

Went shopping with HJ today!
And we went to try out Shiok maki from Koh Grill & Sushi bar.

Shiok Maki

&

Pi Tan Maki

LOL! It's quite funny coz Pi Tan is actually a direct pinyin translation of 皮蛋, which is what is inside the maki. 

And Shiok Maki is really really good!

But.... expensive too. 

It's like $16.80 for 5.

After shopping with HJ for 5 hours (best shopping buddy <3 p="">

Went to find Maria and Beth for dinner!

We had atas pepperlunch LOL

Can't rmb the last time I had pepperlunch, think it was in secondary sch. 

Now, they actually have spaghetti option! 

Which I tried but I think I much rather prefer the rice version. 

Haven't had such enjoyable times in a while. 

Today, is a good day. :)

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Bro Shihan shared words of gold ytd on IM. 

And I am really really grateful towards those who stood by me. 

Thank you.

Towards you, I have nothing but gratefulness as well. 

It was a lesson learnt, and an experience I hope I will never have to go through again. 

On the cab home on Fri, I asked the taxi driver a question during the journey home:

Uncle, how do you let go and move on from something?

And the uncle was kind enough to answer:

There's a few ways. First, you ignore the person or thing you are moving on from. And eventually, it will fade off. Or, you can confront the person and settle all the unresolved issues and give yourself some closure. 

The taxi uncle is happily married with  3 kids and driving cab now because he has retired.

Before I alight from the cab, he shared some last words:

Girl, don't take life so seriously. Remember this. 

Thank you, kind stranger.