Be kind to yourself

Grieving seems to be a non-linear thing

Just when I thought I was better, V day hits and another 3 days of crying resumes

Things seem to feel bad again because I received another terrible news last Fri.

Right after the break up, I received the opportunity to interview for a job that I really wanted 

And I was so close to getting it because they started doing reference checks...

Only to receive the news last Fri that the position may be on hold

It literally felt like another door just slammed in my face.

My dad has been a great support

While conversing with him, I stated that I feel terrible because nth seems to be going right

Or put in other terms, things are not going the way I want. 

And then he pointed out - most things in life do not go the way you want them to. 

I have realised, my personality and character is like this - I want things to go the way I want

Yet, I lack the tact and strategy to make people do the things I want, so I am doomed to be unhappy. 

And also, there are a lot of things in life that is beyond our control.

The trick to happiness is to recognise and accept life is difficult, and to do what is within our control (our response (not reactions) and hard work) and accept what we can't. 

And to find our mini joys in life. 

Saying is easier than done. My self-entitled personality, I don't think it will change much. 

But,  I can change the thoughts in my mind and being aware whenever I get into that negative space in my head again. 

Too many hard pills to swallow. 

To get over this grieving process and find my acceptance, the first step I'm going to do is to be kind to myself.