erm...
nowadays very fan...
fan wif myself...
for being so busybody over that thing...
it doesn't even concern me...
nvm...
shouldn't talk bout it...

today no cca...
i wonder y???
so went jurong point to eat wif ah siok n val...
ah siok like a mum to us...
keep jia meat n vegetable to give us...
so we agree that ah siok is our mum...
lol...

after that...
went shopping...
but half way through...
ah siok aka mum 3 [ my mum 1 is my real mum... mum 2 is wan en] have to go home...
so only left me n val...
we went popular after cards n such...
tat's when val decided to look for the click 5 album tat she longed for...
when we can't find it...
she said tat we can only buy it from HMV
HMV?? Aids??

we laughed for a long time...
val corrected herself tat it's HVM...
tat's when i decided to break the news to val...
" Aids is HIV not HMV..."
Val started laughing again...
lol...
ar bok called us to ask wat r tested for sci ct...
i told her...
" digestion...Aids..."
lol...
me n val started laughing again...

went library after tat...
then went val home...
we went to a supermarket on the way there...
n val heard a uncle say " use mango to rub leg..."
???
wat the uncle toking bout??
n we started laughing non- stop...
ahahahahahahaha...

went val home...
was flipping through her magazines...
learing to play guitar...
n i learnt how to play one song!!!
but very nan ting...
coz very difficult ma...
i pluck until hand so pain...
guess i cannot learn how to play guitar??

val was trying to repair her phone after tat...
i thought wat she was doing wif the cable in one corner...
when she suddenly turned around and picked up the phone...
saying" du,du,du..."
i laughed until my stomach want to burst...
then later val explained she wanted to hear the du,du,du sound in the phone...
aahahahahahaha...

when going home...
val brought me to the bus stop...
then she suddenly went up the patch of grass n did the mr bean move...
i laugh like a siao zha bo...
then she said she doing foot massage...
lol...

waited for the bus for a long time...
but eventually reached home at 8 something...
gotta go le...
bb

sometimes...
you'll only cherish things when you lose them...
i learnt that the hard way...
nt only once but twice...
i dun wanna make the same mistake thrice...
if possible i wanna everything to start again since primary two...


i will spend quality time wif you...
won't make you angry anymore...
won't command you to do anything...
n be the same bubbly gal tat you once knew...
i won't be so naive...
n make you hurt...

if possible...
i would have told you the truth...
but i didn't...
wif the intentions tat its for your own gd...


too late...
its too late for anything when it happened so suddenly...
too sudden...
i juz put down everything n flew bac...
without even knowing wat happened...
when i saw you lying there...
i couldn't cry...
everybody say i'm heartless...
but i was numb from the pain...
so numb tat i juz stood there while dad pushed me...


tat's pri 3...
but the same fate happened again...
this time...
i prayed so hard...
for a miracle to happen...
i shed so much tears...
juz to let you live...
but i am so useless...
the same thing happened the next morning...
you went to sleep...
n never to wake up again...
.
.
.
.

i juz wanna say sorry...
n to ask you all not to worry bout me...
i'll tide through all the problems tat comes my way...
n won't let down all your hopes on me...
i love you both...
forever n ever...

perhaps i shouldn't think too much...
perhaps i should juz live the way i want...
.
.
.
.

went joanne's condo today...
sooo fun...
we went westmall first to meet val n also to buy something...
then we went joanne condo...
did a little bit of homework...
then we went swimming!!!


swim from 3 something to 6 something!!!
then went steam room...
so stuffy!!!
but cool...
joanne was counting how long me n val took to bathe...
though val came out first...
but she went in first...
lol...


then ate joanne's mee...
so spicy!!!
caused me to drink sooo much water...
lol...


on the way back...
val recorded down how she sing...
it was soooo stupid...
n when she heard how she sing...
she can't stop laughing...
all the pple on the bus were looking at her...
she's that crazy!!!
somemore force me...
say i muz sing too...
lol...


gtg...
bb...
.
.
.
.
perhaps someday when i wake up...
it will all be juz a nightmare...

I wonder wats happening to me...
nowadays keep logging in n out of blogger...
1 sec i wanna type something...
the next i juz wanna keep everything inside myself...

i'm living for others right now...
can't even do the things tat i like...
keep getting councilled by my parents...
at the maths test yesterday...
i didn't do finish...
i didn't even think...
n juz sat there n cried...


i really hope to get over it...
but i can't...
i'm sooooo confused...
wif everything tat's happening...
perhaps i'm juz a shell that goes to sch everyday...
without my soul...
perhaps i'll be able to understand wats happening someday...
without going over the same routine again...

long time never post le...
actually juz wanna abandon this blog...
n anyway...
oso nobody come n see le wat...
nvm..
i type to myself...
lolzz...


nothing much happened...
juz that sch reopened...
n caleb got transferred to hwa chong...
really weird without him in class...
coz he's always the clown...
nowadays the class soooo quiet!!
still remembered the broom fight that val n caleb had last year...
it was hilarious!!!
hahahaha...


oh yah...
i changed places wif lois :x
stupid lah!!
the teacher say wat me n nas too noisy...
then muz change place...
now i still not used to it...
keep looking at nas there...
coz sitting at shiok hwee place there so quiet...
i nt happy!!!


nowadays...
have quite alot of frendship problems...
i oso dunno y...
some pple kept complaining bout others...
wat always show a pitiful face...(when she oso showed)
have attitude problem...(she have more then us)
also dun understand y she have sooooo many things to complain...
I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!!!
stupid, mad, lame YOU!!!


also had the NYAA camp...
so sian one loh...
the three days passed by ultra fast...
lame...
i hate camps!!!


going to be chi new year the day after...
other pple r looking forward to it but i'm nt...
no way when i can't go n bai nian...
i counted how many years i never bai nian le...
n it came to a total of 8 YEARS!!!
can u believe it??
i can't...
someday...
or someway...
i hope that i can fly to china to celebrate...
sigh...


Daddy went to watch the movie "memoirs of a geisha"
i'm supposed to go...
but i too lazy wat...
now i'm regreting it...
stay at home also nothing to do...
plus i dun wanna do hw...
I DON"T WANT!!


syahida aka da ji...
u are suppose to buy for me the bk " memoirs of a geisha"...
juz recording it here so that i can have evidence when she denies it...
muhahaha...
if u don't...
then u'll noe wat happens...
I WANT THE BK!!!
then i'll give u a birthday present too...


update next time...
bb...

Val changed her blogskin...
quite cool...
lolzz...


thought of typing before i go overseas...
n updating too...
my blog is deserted...
nvm...
i type for myself...
lolzz...


Monday...
actually supposed to go bxt house to do the project thingy...
she backed out at the last minute...
n wif a REASON...
nvm...
me n val went jurong entertainment to eat lunch...
go library...
spent a long time there...
n val got sooo sian tat she started to do ABNORMAL things...
n i mean ABNORMAL...
for eg...
she asked me to look at her...
i looked ...
n she started turning around...
after turning for a full circle...
she asked me y i never laughed...
i asked her y i should laugh....
anything to laughe bout meh??
n she burst out laughing...
i thought she's mad...
so we left...


went to IMM...
but muz SWEAR to bring val to the bus stop...
went there go giant shop...
bought quite alot of things...
then when we bout to reach the bus stop...
juz crossing the road when i saw a sign saying tat's boon lay road...
i asked val whether tat's called boon lay road...
n she started...
god noes...earth noes...i noe...you noe...
except for him...he dun noe...bla bla bla...
all the way to the bus stop!!
can u believe it??
i juz asked her a SIMPLE thing...
n she started reciting??
coz us to laugh for sooo long n hard...
lolzz...


went to my mum's fren shop today...
bought alot of clothes...
lolzz...
but all the way at ang mo kio there...
took soo long to reach...
lolzz...


gtg...
c ya...

Tat val...
give me dateline by tonite muz update or else do quiz on me...
sigh...
then i should update on my life this week ba...


k...
let's start on mon...
but cannot remember wat i did...
so go on to tuesday...
lolzz...

went suntec to support class...
soooo angry at joanne...
but now ok little bit...
coz have time to cool down...

go there hide under table...
eat...
play pranks on others by trying to grab their legs...
quite fun lah...
then val go n scare a boy by shouting"BOO!!"
tat's how he got that name...
lolzz...
played wif some other guys...
all from blastier hill pri sch...
val oso got a 'boyfriend' there...
lolzz...


wednesday...
went shopping wif my mum in the morning...
then went bugis at nite to watch the laojiu musical...
nice!!
but the tickets nt paid one...
is won from ufm 1003...
my father won one...
lolzz...
somemore answered 5 questions leh...
he sooo clever right??
lolzz...

took MRT to go home...
then i hungry...
so my dad bought me to mac to eat supper...
he sooo gd to me...
veri abnormal...
lolzz...


Thursday
went to library in the afternoon...
guess wat i saw in the children section??
someone from css wif her girlfren...
but i dunno them la...
lolzz...
then went wif my mum to go n get new specs...
my mum sooooo fickle-minded...
tat we spent nearly 2 HOURS there...
then i play wif my bro coz we both sooo bored...
lolzz...


Friday
had chi dance today...
same as always...
practice the dance loh...
nothin much...
luckily teacher never scold me bout the tues thingy...
lolzz...


there u have it val...
ur updated post...
so now dun cui me liao...
oh yah...
1 more thing...
i going overseas next week...
so might nt update...
wait till i come bac ba...


GD NITE EVERYBODY!!